Sonata [SEBASTIAN STAN]

THIRTY TWO

private messages

june

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june
what the hell am i doing
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june
stupid crouton boy stop making me feel like i'm going into cardiac arrest all the time you make my hands so sweaty and my brain feel all melty inside
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june
i don't watch horror movies or ride roller coasters or ever do anything remotely exciting because i hate being scared. i like safe. and you're the farthest thing from safe because you terrify me
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june
lmao why can't i delete my feelings like all these texts
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june

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june
i don't know how to explain this. it's like when i was a kid i wouldn't let my mom drop me off at school in the morning because i was so afraid she would never come back, just like my dad. everyone always leaves, and I'm afraid you will too. thats why i'm leaving you first
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june
he won't hurt me and that's the only thing i need in a relationship. i can't let myself hope for anything more than that
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june
i'm so sorry sebastian
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june
i'm leaving for sf tomorrow morning. i'll probably be really busy so i don't think i'll see you again for a while. hope shooting goes well.
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AUTHOR'S NOTE: this is a mess what the heck how do i delete myself. (btw if june's thought process makes no sense to you it's basically the classic trope of 'i don't want to get my heart broken so imma play it safe and date this nice boring boy')