Sonata [SEBASTIAN STAN]

SIXTY SIX

private messages

seb
hey j are you okay?

june
yeah fine why?

seb
you seemed really down at the end of dinner last night

seb
did i do something wrong?

seb
dammnit it was the anniversary gift wasn't it

seb
i should've gotten you jewelry or something but miles recommended that cello bow sorry

june
no seb the present was amazing i loved it

june
i just miss my mom a lot and i feel bad i'm not there for her

june
it's hard for her being alone, especially right now

seb
what's happening right now?

june
it's right around the time my dad left

seb
oh i'm sorry

june
don't be it's not your fault

june
it's his

seb is typing...

seb
do you want to talk about it?

seb
if you don't want to i get it

june
no it's fine i probably should

june
i don't even hate him that much as a person i just hate what he did to our family

june
my mom had me when she was really young and had to drop out of college

june
my dad was pretty young too so he stuck around until i was 9 and then decided it was too much responsibility

june
last i heard he shacked up with his secretary ha

june
he sends me $50 for my birthday every year, even though he gets the date wrong every time, and that's all we ever hear from him

seb
i'm sorry

seb
i know that doesn't mean anything but i'm not pitying you i'm truly sorry this happened to you guys

seb
your mom is amazing and you're lucky you turned out just like her

june
i just wish he hadn't left, you know?

june
it wrecked my mom

seb
does she miss him?

june
always

seb
do you?

june
i miss the idea of him

june
i don't remember him all that well anymore

seb
maybe you could try to track him down

june
i don't think i want to

seb
if he came back what would you do?

june
i don't know

june
i really don't know

june
we've spent so much of our lives without him

seb
i have to go june

seb
i'm really sorry i wish i could stay

seb
i'll talk to you tomorrow okay?

june
oh okay

seb
hey thanks for talking to me

june
thanks for listening

seb
i love you

june
me too

AUTHOR'S NOTE: yes, houston i can report that the shit is on trajectory to hit the fan. also june my sweet child. i have yet to write an oc without daddy/mommy issues i don't know why i torture them this way