A Morgenstern Queen

chapter seven

The world is fading in and out of reality and fiction, slowly and almost painfully. I see the shore of lake Lynn with Clary and Jace over me, clarys firey red hair falling in front of her small face as she grabs my arm and burns a stele into it.
Everything goes black again and I see the hear waves breaking and smell the sweat salt air, fields of buttercups surround me and in the distance the blue seas. I've been here before when I was a child, only a moth or two before my father was killed.I remember my father an Valentine talking by the cliff side as jonothan and I played in the buttercups. I look down at my frame and see a black dress ending where the ground meets my feet, the bottom covered yellow from the flowers. Footsteps, I turn to see a beautiful young man walking towards me, every feature of his body familiar to me but he's eyes. Jonothans black eyes a brilliant emerald much like his sister's eyes, but even more green, I reach for him but I'm instantly falling back to reality. Pain shooting threw my arm and I open my eyes, the walls of the basilias, black runes of healing on every wall, two robed figures of the silent brothers above me.
And I fall back to my dreams. The institute? I see jace, Clary, Isabelle and Alec sitting in the training room laughing. I try to run up to them but I can't move, "guys?" They turn to me faces filled with anger and pain. It was iz who spoke first "what are you doing here! Your not welcome! You betrayed us! Max is dead because of you"
I knew it was true it was my fault I should have told them the truth. Then Alec.
"You should have died along side that monster" Clary was next
"You make me sick! How could you have ever thought he loved you!"
And finally jace...
"You should join him, we don't want you here your just as bad as him Theresa, I should have killed you to" and he did he shoved a blade into my heart without a second thought.
I awoke with a shrill my hair plastered to my head in sweats, my gaze falling on the sleeping nephilim with wounds far greater than mine. I grab my boots which are layed on the end of my cot, pulling them on. And heading out of the basilias, my head pounding, not in pain but in flashes of the nightmare. I can't go back there, I'll move to another institute to finish my training, maybe the London institute.
"Tessa!" I hear jaces voice call behind me and I turn slowly to see him running up to me pulling me into and almost an bareble hug. Jace wayland is hugging me! The world must be ill.
"Jace? What are you doing?"
"I'm hugging you, I was just about to run up to the basilias to see if you were okay if a silent brother would let me threw."
He lets go of the hug and stands back. "Come on back to the penhallow house" he starts to walk off and I follow.
"Your not mad at me? You don't want to kill me?"
"No tess I don't, none of us blame you for what happened."
"But max... If I had of told you who Sebastian was"
"Tessa you couldn't have known he would have... You couldn't have know his every actions, did you know about the war? About Valentine being in idris? Any of his plans?"
"No I didn't he told me nothing but!" Jace stops and puts both hands on my shoulders
"But nothing you didn't know his plans it's not your fault, I promise" I go silent.
"I knew she wasn't your sister...."
"And why didn't you tell us" he smirks at me "oh I know you wee jelouse"
"Never!" I laugh out "so are you to gonna finally get together"
"What do you think?" We reach the penhallow home and walk in, the house is silent with everyone asleep.
"Goodnight wayland"
"Goodnight starkchild, oh we need to talk tomorrow by the way I found something out you should know"
"Of course tomorrow" I head up to the room I was staying in and look at the two beds, mine the left bed and jonothans the right, a sharp pang goes threw my heart and I lay on the right bed.
I'm taken back to the yellow fields and salty air, I hear my father's and valentines voice clearer now, and I see Jonathan walking towards me, I hesitate and walk towards Valentine. there voice growing louder.
"Samuel you cannot tell her who her parents are... She must believe your her father." Valentine says to my father, he was so much taller then him with white hair and more runes than my father.
"Shes old enough to know I hate lying to her Valentine, she deserves to know who her real parents were, that she has a brother" Valentine grabs my father by the collar of his shirt with a murderous look on his face
"You will not tell Theresa who she is! If you do I will kill you Samuel" his voice a vial growl.
"Shes not my daughter Valentine.... But fine I will not tell her, she will find out on her own one day"
And then I'm awake again, I hear voices down stairs and I pull on an over sized jumper I stole from Alec last month.
I walk into the dining room and sit beside Alec, Sebastians chair is empty and so is Maxs and mayrses.
"Is that my sweater?" I hear Alec say
"Yes" and I reach for a bowl of fruit "you can have it back"
"Oh no it's fine it suits you better"

"Tess" jace runs up behind be just before I enter the bedroom to pack my things before our departure tomorrow.
"Yeah?"
"I wanted to talk to you remember"
"Of course" I gesture for him to come in and I sit on Jonathan's bed.
"So i found something out tess about my parents"
"Oh no are are you secretly Hodges son, cause I can totally see the resemblance. Thankfully you didn't inherent his traitor trait"
"No I'm not Hodges son but, well my parents were herondales, Stephan and Celine. Stephan died before I was born and so did Celine Valentine took me and raised me... But there's more to it than that"
"Well do tell jace we have a party to get to"
"Celine was pregnant with twins.... Tess your my sister."
"Uhhh incase you haven't noticed we look nothing alike, you have golden hair and mine is well black and..." When I look at him now I see slight similar features, the cheekbones, our frames of our bodies, the scar shaped like a star in your shoulder, our eyes a golden color that always fascinated me.
"I kissed my brother...."
"Yeah sorry about that tessy"
"Jace herondale the herondale known for incest" his face goes stern and in impressed
"Sorry..." I remember my dream last night, well more like a memory
"Jace I think my father wanted to tell me the truth about my parents but Valentine didn't want that so he had him killed"
"That seems likely"
"Does that mean ibalso have angel blood in me like you and Clary"
"Yes"
"So we're siblings... Do the lightwoods know?"
"I forgot how many questions you ask" he lets our amused laugh "no they don't yet but we'll tell them when we get back to the institute"
"Of course"
"See you at the party... Sis"
"See you then, brother" the word brother felt foreign on my tounge, of course I had said the word before but this was different, he was actually my blood brother.