Femme fatale in the Devil's territory

Emptiness

Rogue POV

What had happened? Why do I feel like this? It hurts and I don't know what hurts.

I remember his eyes, the look on his face. He let me go...

He was a dangerous sin wrapped in a beautiful skin. And I couldn't help myself, but fall for him...

Laying in my bed I was trying to find consolation by hugging the white sheets. I knew that falling for him would bring consequences, I wasn't blind. In full conscience I walked ahead and fell into a deep hole, a hole that I don't know how to get out of.

Now I am in Belgium. It has been a week since I saw him. He is still all I seem to think of. Why every time that I am happy something bad happens and ruins everything?

Knowing him taught me so many things I didn't knew. Hell, I didn't knew crying this much was possible. I smile to myself, the tears falling down my cheeks.

Usually the more I experience pain the stronger I grow, but I don't know if this is going to make me strong..

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Ryan POV

Missing her came with waves, I realized that tonight I was drowning...

I can't control my mind right now. The only place where it goes it's her. Her eyes, her hair, her laugh... But now she wasn't here. She was gone and with her what was left of my soul.

I am supposed to be the most powerful person in the country. How could I be so helpless? Why on earth did I fell in love? I know that shit could weaken you, but I still did. And now I am ruined without a way out, without knowing what to do.

I don't regret what I did, her life mattered more. And I don't know where this is going to lead me, but I'm ready to pray the prize. I would rather loose everything than harm her. Now I am already lost what can I lose more? It's crazy how an individual doesn't care about anything else, but their loved ones and I have tried this feeling after a long time. All thanks to her..

My eyes get watery. If someone could see me this way, they wouldn't believe what they see.
But I can't control it. Something I wouldn't say on a regular day.

God I love her! Even though that she is gone I still love her, I can't forget her. WHY? WHY?

I flip the table and throw the chair away. There was no salvation for me. You can't save a man that has opened his own grave. And the only person that could save me is now long gone. What is there left to do?

She made everyday seem something and now... Now nothing seems anything anymore.

The door opens and one of my men come in.

He stands there like he didn't knew how to act. Maybe he was afraid.

"Sir there is a problem. They are starting to shoot in our territory."-he says.

Well I didn't kill her.. they are just completing the deal. I knew this was going to happen.

"Sir?"-the man says waiting to hear what I had to say about this.

I get up from my chair and look at him: "Let them."

He looked surprised."But sir you have..."

"I don't want any of you to be involved in this and risk your lives. This is how it should be so leave." I simply say.

It didn't matter if they would win. I didn't have any strength to fight anymore. What am I supposed to fight for?.
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😭😭😭😭😭 Poor Ryan and Rogue. Sorry guys I haven't updated but I have been busy because I'll start college and I'm moving to the capital. Big changes for me. Anyway thank you for your support.
Lot's of love badgal ❤️😍