Rivals (Sequel To Pitcher)

Forgiveness

Austin POV

Once Aaron left I just stood there. Unsure of what to think and what to feel.Perhaps I was supposed to feel angry,  angry that now after he had messed everything up that he could've messed up, or was I supposed to be happy that he apologized and that it really wasn't Abby's intent to harm me in any way. 

That was what I told Abigail.I told her that all of this was all just a big mistake and I understood now. Everything should've has been better but it wants. Ab still glared at me like I had committed a crime or something. 

"So you still despise me?" I asked her, she looked like she was gonna punch me. Arms crossed and everything, she was still upset.

"No. I don't despise you, I never despised you, I'm just not sure quite what I think of this whole thing.  I mean he did kinda ruin my life..."  She looked down absent-mindedly at the ground. 

"That's the thing Ab. He didn't mess up us because I am apologizing by showing you that I trust you. This was all just a big mistake, he's sorry, Ab, I'm sorry." Abigail looked around the room, trying to figure out what else there was to focus on. But then at that second she grabbed my face violently in her hands and pulled her lips against mine harshly. It prompted me to recognize just how much I had missed her endearing lips. I was enjoying it until she had decided to pull away. 

"I guess I could forgive him, he was kinda cute anyways...ha ha." 

"Ab!"

"I was kidding! How did you actually believe me?" My heart stopped beating so fast the second I heard her say that she was kidding

"I knew that." I lied even though I got paranoid over losing Abby since the beginning. I mean half the world is in love with her. So what are the odds that she is going to run off with some guy? pretty damn high if you ask me. 

Abigail POV

WIth all of teh build up and heartbreak Aaron Micheal Nola has put me through, these past few horrible months, I thought I would never find myself able to forgive him. But by some miracle, I did. I forgave Aaron Micheal nola, the man who had made my life absolute hell but also the same man who ahd the capapability of making my life heaven if he wanted to.  He ahd full control of me from the beginning and he knew it. He had had control of me all along although I did not like to say it. It was true he did. I had spent all of my life not wanting to allow my mind to be controled by a man. and yet here I am, I met Aaron and everything changed. He changed my life for better and for worse. Lord knows, I may have changed hhis. 

At the time when I met him, he seemed good. Like someone I could trust. Someone who would not get me into troubule but I would soon lear taht I was wrong. However it was not he who had made my heart and mind a mess, it was me. Me and my own messed up feelings. I had been so used to focusing on only thegame and not on love and feelings, hell even emotion had been erased from my memory. That when Aaron came around I was star struck. he had knocked me down wven before he had laid a fist on my face. Even after we had established we despised each other, I missed him. I missed getting to talk to him everyday and looking to him to keeo me happy He was my distraction from a long confusing career. I missed wondering if he liked me and if maybe just maybe we would end uo together. I knew for a fact that was what I wanted, but did he want it. What he may have thought of me at the beginning is a mystery. What did he think of my messed up hair? My exhausted eyes and I oriobably had a bit of dirt on my face. I loved this game, but did it ever once love me back. I loved this man but did he ever once love me back. 

When my boyfriedn, the actual man I had dedicated my love to, told me that it was ok and he trusted me. I was relieved but I was still hurt. Then when he told me his brother, theman whom I had loved since teh very moment I signed with this team, was sorry. I was joyful. I struggled to maintain a calm persona. But it also made me face the fact...I was not once ever over my love for Aaron Nola.