Only You || A Jeff Atkins Fanfiction

SIX

I shut the batting cage door behind me and pulled my keys out from my pocket. I heard footsteps escalate in my direction and I turned around.

"Hannah?"

"Gabi, I can't do this anymore." 

I stared at the classroom wall, my attention clearly not on any of my classes, possibly not on me at all. I had listened to those tapes all in one night. I hadn't slept in a long time. Those tapes have been haunting me for weeks, and I couldn't shake them no matter how happy I pretended to be. Even the alcohol didn't drown it out. 

If I would have done something you'd still be alive, Hannah. None of this would have happened. You came to me for help, and I had nothing!

 If I would have made you stay, you wouldn't have died, Jeff. If that stupid stop sign would have still been up, you would still be here!

All you wanted to do was get your grades up... you weren't even drunk....

The worst part is, Jeff, they keep putting up posters about drunk driving. You weren't drunk! I keep seeing you everywhere, and I keep hoping I will see your handsome face every day when I go to school.

 Why did you have to leave? Why did you have to leave me? I pray every night that you will miraculously come back and just walk right through that door like you'd always do. You'd smile at me with that perfect smile, and we'd talk throughout the whole class period. But that can't happen, that's not how it works. 

"Hey Hannah," I slopped my backpack down in the library and she had her hoodie up.  "Hannah?" She looked up at me and apologized. She laughed, removing her earbuds, making me smile, and putting down her hood. 

"When did you get here?" she asked.

"Just now." I laughed a little.

"Are you going to the baseball game tonight?" I asked.

"I wasn't planning on it..."

"You totally should, you should come to the game." 

"I don't know, I was gonna just-"

"Please!" I begged. 

"I guess, yeah." I smiled and hugged her before exiting the library. 

I didn't even listen, I never did. I was just a stubborn girl. And now you are both gone and it's all my fault. 

All my fault.

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