what is wrong with me? (fell poth)

time to make him mine

??? POV
I

watched them walk and slowly stare into each others eye's. But fell!goth's eye's looked better than anyone's any time of day. His red eye glowed with passion but I wanted that emotion aimed towards me. I just walked away, trying to think of a way to get him back. I know all his favorite things.
I know everything about him. His favorite food is red velvet cake and loves necromancy spells. I don't think that dumbass even took the time to get to know him. He deserves better than a killer and rapper who could probably rape him some day. It makes me cringe just thinking about it...

Fell!goth's POV
I felt like someone was watching us again but the feeling soon went away. I was looking at pudding. He looked at me with passion and hunger in his eye's but also the dead feeling of a dominant monster which I wasn't gonna lie, I loved that feeling. I always loved the way his eye's looked. Now i'm rambling someone stop me. I looked away blushing, hoping that we could just go home.
When I looked away I saw someone on the far side of the park crying. It was cross. I looked at pudding and gestured at cross he looked at me then nodded. We started walking over there to hear him saying 'what am I doing wrong', I hurriedly walked to cross. "H-hey, cross, you ok?" I asked bending down to his level. He jumped noticing my presence And stuttered.
"Y-yeah, just having some love problems" he said shakily. I knew what was really going on because he had told me a long time ago when we were close enough to become good friends that he cut himself because he has depression.
"Don't lie to me" I said a little hard.
"Ok, ok, i've started it again" he told me.
"*sigh* god damn it cross come over by my house so we can talk more tomorrow" I told him with a soothing voice. I know how it feels because I had went through it to and cut myself once or twice on my legs. The cuts have faded enough to where you can barely see them but they're still there.
"Thanks, I-I think you're really the only one I can talk to about this"
"No problem" he nodded and got up walking away. I was still bending over and looking over at where cross had ran off when a large pain stung my ass. I bent my back forwards and grabbed my behind in pain while looking behind me to see pudding on the ground laughing uncontrollably.
I pouted and crossed arms knowing he smacked my fu*king ass. He got up and calmed down wiping a tear from his socket. He is gonna pay. I walked towards him. He gave me a confused look when I smacked him across his face. We love each other but I don't remember giving him the permission to my slap my ass.
My hand hurt from hitting him too hard and looked back at pudding who was rubbing his cheek that had a hand mark with a hole in the middle. I giggled a bit then hugged his chest knowing that he didn't mean to be sexual. He hugged me back and laid his chin atop my head. I love it when he shows he loves me. It reassures me that he won't leave me.
He let go and held my shoulders tight. He leaned to the side of my head and kissed my cheek. His thumps going up and down while nuzzling my neck. "Don't ever leave me....please" pudding said with a quiet, soft and sad voice. I couldn't believe he thought I would ever leave him.
"W-what? Why would I do that?" I said pulling away from him to look at his wet teary eyes.
"I-i'm just scared that y-you'll be mad at me for all the things I did to you. I hurt your feelings. I made you feel that way towards me and all because I couldn't accept the fact that I loved you and for years I kept harming you wishing that the feeling would go away when I really didn't" he started to sob.
I had put him in another hug and put my hand on top of his head slowly rubbing it to sooth him. He held to me like I was the only thing in reach, if he let go, there would be nothing left to hold onto.
"Pudding I would never do that, I forgive you and the past is in the past. There is no reason for water works" he nodded in my shoulder then pulled away from me wiping his eyes. "I've noticed that you've been crying a lot more lately. Is my baby pallette from childhood back" I said the last part like a mother teasing their child.
"W-what?! No, don't tease me!" he said stepping forward and putting a fist in front of himself childishly. I giggled at his new found embarrassment. He blushed getting to his regular stance and smiling. I was still giggling until my stomach growled. I grabbed pudding's hand and dragged him once more to a near by cafe. When we got there I sat down in a chair outside.
Pudding was catching his breathe as he put his hand on the table to keep from falling. I got a little worried and went to help, but he shooed me away and sat down. I sat down as well and put my hands in my lap. It was a habit because of being a reaper. When in meetings you have to sit properly and i've been in so many that now I have a habit of doing so. Pudding looked at me confused as he slouched in his chair. The silence was interrupted when someone came up to our table and looked at pudding. "Hey can I talk to you a bit?"...