Baby, Don't Cry

I think I'm Gonna Be Sick

I had another sleepless night. And I can’t even open my eyes properly because of the swollenness from crying all night.

“How can I go to work in this kind of state?” I said still laying at my bed, felt lazy to get up. Guilt is still stabbing my conscience… headache still drilling my temple. All I could do was let out a deep sigh. “I could not take another absence from work.” I drove myself to get up even it was hard to do so. I felt really woozy in moving that I have to grab a hold on something to stable my footing.

When I got to the shop I was really late...

“What happen to you?” my boss asked concernly as I took off the sunglasses I was wearing and expose my puffy eyes.

“I’m sorry boss. Don’t worry, I’m okay.” I said trying to sound lively.

“You don’t look okay to me. You should have called me instead. You look so pale!”

“Boss, don’t over react… I’m fine! Seriously!” I said assuring him as I patted his shoulder and went to the staff’s locker room to change into my uniform.

“What a stubborn kid!” He shouted at me shaking his head. I just turned to looked at him and smiled.

I attempted to move as fast as I could to keep up with others. Thankfully I survived my shift even if I was struggling. My boss insisted that I should take the whole week to rest. So after there, I went straight at Ahjussi’s store. They’ll be coming back later around six or seven in the evening, that’s what ahjussi said when he called awhile ago. Good thing Jongshin oppa volunteered to open up the store this morning, my problem was lessen a bit. He was talking to some teenagers who where paying for some stuff when I arrived…

“Oh? Ahnyeonghaseyo oppa!” I greeted him as I passed at the counter.

“Hey, you’re too early… you okay now?” he said back while scanning an item.

“Yeah, I am… thanks oppa.” I went inside the office to punch my time card.

Before I could get inside the office I heard one of the girls asked something to Jongshin… “Oppa, did EXO really come here yesterday? Why?”

“Hmm… yeah, a friend of them was working here and not feeling well yesterday when they visited. Since they don’t have a schedule, they decided to help out here.” He said aloud letting me hear what he said.

I turned to glared at him and said in no voice… “I KNOW… I KNOW…” and he teasingly smiled back.

“See I told you they were here. They’re all such a nice friend. I really like them so much.” Another girl said.

It feels like a hard knock in my head hearing what she said. I know I should be the one to apologize but I don’t know how. The guts that I need are just not present in me at the moment. Then I remember how I yelled at Baekhyun… it seems like he was the one I’m blaming for what happened although I didn’t mean to. I let out another frustrated sigh… I got out to the locker room after changing again to another uniform and went directly at the counter to substitute Jongshin.

“Are you going?” he asked all of a sudden.

“Going where?” I asked back not getting what he was asking about.

“On Thursday, Sehun’s graduation… he asked you to come right?” he said.

“I don’t know actually.” I answered. I almost forgot about it.

“You should go… you heard the customers awhile ago right?” I nodded as an answer. “Those are the kind of friends that are hard to find and very regrettable to lose.”