My Little Poetry Collection

Numb

Right now
I don't know what to be.

I don't know what I want to be.

I don't know what others want me to be.

I don't know what I'm supposed to be.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do,
When I don't know if I should be me,
Or if I even am me.

I'm confused out of my mind,
Afraid that anything I do is wrong.
Especially if I let myself out.

I start the day full of energy, and end it numb.

I don't want to mess up.
But that's me, the person who messes up.

I'm the girl who always smiles.
I'm the girl who no one knows is hiding her fear,
Her biggest fear,
Who is dealing with it every day.
Yet they still point it out.
They still make sure to remind me.

I'd give anything
To forget my past.
To forget what I've done.

But I can't,
So right now I'm just numb.