Healing with love

Hands off

Pic of Anna^

Jason's pov

My eyes fluttered open.

I gently sat up and looked around. It took me a moment to realize where I was.

I was in Chris's room.
....
In Chris's bed....

I sat there a minute and thought.

Chris was my mate.

I was still kind of letting that whole thing sink in.

And I had just joined a pack. I was going to be one of their leaders.

I don't think that I could do that...

I'm to weak to even lead myself.

And who would want a suicidal leader anyway. I cut myself for gods sake.

A thought came to me.

What if they'd seen my arms? What would they think of me then?

They'd hate me...
They'd think I was weird.

No one wants to be around a weirdo like me who cuts...

What if Chris saw them...

He'd... He'd reject me.

The thought made my heart ache.

'Don't think like that about your mate, it doesn't feel good. It really screws with your emotions', Sam told me.

I nodded my head. But I knew the thought was some where in the back of my mind.

I decided it would be in my best interest to hide this from them. Even though my dad didn't care when he saw them.

"Good start. The next step is you taking a flying leap off a cliff", I remember my dad saying.

Thats probably what the others would tell me if they found out too.

I looked at a clock that was on a dresser next to the bed. It was 9 pm.

Gee was I asleep all day?

I got out of Chris's bed, making it up before exiting the room.

I gently padded down the stairs. The murmurs of everyone became clearer.

"I bet someones happy", kale said his voice kind of teasing.

"I am", I heard Chris say.

"Mmmmhmmm~ bet someone is also gonna be getting busy soon", Sierra said.

"I'm not doing anything untill he's ready, so drop it.", Chris stated.

"Not doing what untill who's ready?", I asked making myself visible to everyone.

"Umm! Nothing! You know! compicated mate ritual stuff, very complex- Nothing to worry about now!", Chris said with a huge nervous smile on his face.

The twins shared large sly grins on their faces as kale whispered something about babies to them.

"Umm... Ok", I said. Hopefully they explained this whole mate ritual to me soon. I'm so confused.

"So, did you have a good rest?" Chris asked.

I nodded.

"Thank you for letting me sleep in your bed", I said

"Sleep isn't the only thing thats gonna happen there", Shawnee snicker, making the other two erupt in giggles.

Chris sent them a quick glare then turned his attention back to me.

"I'm glad you slept well", he said with a small smile.