Reese Royce Stories

Decisions Upon Decisions

A box of tissues couldn't directme through the issues, Thoughts between my temples pushing me to think, That I'm mental. Distorted thoughts and fluctuating emotions. Six months pregnant, And I'm only 15 years old, Reality hit and it finally soaked in, But... What i was hoping... A family i never had, A baby, Mom, And dad, And ne day eloping... Maybe my expectations exceeded more then what's real, Every word that he said, I thught was real. Him telling me that, He love me with his heart, I thought it was real. But fter i told him I'm pregnant, He got real and told me he don't feelt he way he once felt. With no hesitation in his voice, How could i be so naive thinking i could change a little boy, My mother slightly disowning me for my childish decisions, My friends partying all the time with no responsibilities. And it hurts that i can't be with them. Embarrassed to walk through the school hall, So i rather take a yer off. Going through so much shit all at one time. But he's too insensitive to even check up on me, Or even call... Especially when i wasn't the one that begged to have sex raw. My options... I'm to far to get a abortion, Maybe adoption. My tears are non-stopping. Decisions upon decisions, But at the same time, I wish i was with him. I can be too forgiving, My flaw... But there's no one to help... And i still don't know what to do... I'm scared... And i didn't create this situation all by myself... Or did i? Pessimistic thoughts whenever im alone. Regretting what i did, Knowing i should have just stuck to school, Now i have no choice but to live like I'm grown.