Reese Royce Stories

Late Night Thoughts

Her: I feel so empty and lost, I gave him my attention, My affection, My love, I gave him my all. It's to the point, I don't want my friends nor family involved, Because they would tell me I'm better off. Maybe it's true, Maybe it's false, Am i at fault? Am i the cause? Days pass me by that feel like years, My heart darkens and becomes hard, seconds feel like hours. I smoke cigarettes in my dark room until my lips feel raw. Distress and depressed, Did he love me at all? Because if he did, He wouldn't have did me the way that he did. Am i wrong to still be in love with him, After the shit that he did? I don't know. I try going out with girlfriends too get him off my mind, But when the liquor is gone, And my friends are not around, I'm alone. Ocean deep thoughts about him, I began drown. I'm strong but yet I'm still weak. Especially when he constantly texting me, Asking me "Can we speak?" I want to give in, But i can't. Lord what should i do? I really don't have a clue...

Him: How Could i fuck up like this? How could i treat her like this, After all the things we been through?... How could i have the nerve, This is not what she deserves. Constantly draking drinking & thinking. I had real love and when she's no longer around, That's when sinks in. I can't enjoy music i use to, It's like every song reminds me of her, Is it possible to gain back her trust, And be back in love, As we once were? She don't resound to my calls nor responds to my texts. I stalk her social media, Her Instagram, Her Facebook, Her Twitter, Watching everything she uploads on the internet. Could i put the blame on her? The way she ignored my needs, Shooting me down, Even when i begged her please, Did she push me away? Damn i wish i could rewind that day, And didn't do what i did. Yeah I'm the blame. Cheating is a choice, Not a accident. Even though she tested me the way she did, We should've just broke up before that happened. I'm around girls, But their not get. How could i let this occur? I still love her. I still need her. Maan, What would i do, To just have 5 minutes alone with her. Im so sorry...