All We Had

Weak One

Andy,

It was just perfect. We loved each other more than other. I spent every moment I could get just to be near her. If I had just known what was going on. She hid everything from me. One day I saw her hands shaking. Another day she ran into the bathroom and threw up. Why is it so much to ask I just wanted to spend my life with the perfect girl. Here's how that dream ended. She laid in the bed. Almost like she was sleeping. I didn't believe the doctors. At least not right away. I told them she would wake up. I told them our love was so strong it would be enough to make her open her eyes and be fine. I wanted it so bad. I waited by her bed. I waited for her to be drawn out of her sleep. I waited for six days. The seventh day I prayed for ten hours straight and her parents forced me to go home. That week was so bad. I had contemplated my existence without her there. Ever since we met I thought I couldn't go on without her being with me. Yet here I am. Suicide was always an option. I didn't have anything to live for anymore so why not. I've had a lot of time to think and I guess it's best to stay alive a little longer. I think the only thing keeping me here is that she would've wanted me to stay strong. 

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Sam,

Everything was peaceful. I was thankful I had such an amazing friend. I guess that's what happens when you get used to having your best friend always there. I guess it all different now. I don't know what to do with myself. I've been so shaken up since her death. I don't know who I am. All because someone died. People die all the time. Tons of people die everyday. Now that it's my best friend. It's too much. I'm scared. No. I'm petrified. I miss her SSSOOOOOOOO much. I went home the other day. I went to my room and cried then I dialed her number. I was going to tell her about what happened. Then I realized her surgery happened. Her death happened. Then I listened to her voice mail. Her peppy voice brought back so many memories. I replayed it fourteen times. Until I was sobbing so hard I couldn't breath. 

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Rick,

          I was all too quiet. Everything was quiet. My family was content with their farm life.  It all worked. We could pay the bills. There was no fighting. We were all happy. Something had to happen. I don't know why but there's always that silence before something goes terribly wrong. I've spent my whole life with my sister down the hall. She annoyed me sometimes. I wanted her to disappear sometimes. Now that she has I want her back. My parents used to say "You don't know what you have until it's gone." I never really knew what that meant up until now.

         The hospital freaked me out. I was in the waiting room when I heard the news. I ran to her room. Playing the scene where she said goodbye. She had no hope she would survive. The doctors told her to stay positive. They said they would do everything they could. I saw the pictures. That tumor was big. That tumor killed her. I hate that we could've caught it sooner. Maybe she would still be alive.