Loving Them Both

Make you feel my love

When the rain is blowing in your face, and the whole world is on your case. I could offer you a warm embrace. To make you feel my love. When the evening shadows and the scars appear, and there no one there to dry your tears, I could hold hold you for a million years. To make you feel my love.

Make you feel my love- Adele

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(Klaus's POV)

Days had passed and I was only getting worse. My body was growing weaker. I couldn't phase. I refused to eat, because I always threw it back up. I couldn't sleep, I was constantly up thinking about Ronnie, and how it was all my fault that she died.

Her body was still in our room. I didn't have it in me to move her. Having her body here makes me feel like she's not really dead, and that she's just sleeping. Her mom is not doing any batter. Imagine coming home from a business trip, and finding out that your only daughter is dead, by her dad that she always thought was dead.

I've tried to just be alone, but Luke was making good on his promise, and is doing everything he can to keep me healthy. But even he can't help me. I stopped going to school. I want to go back on Monday. I only have a couple of months left, and I graduate this year. I regret not seeing her graduate, walking down the isle in a cap and gown, and kissing her in front of the crowded football field. I'll never be able to see our kids. I'll haver be able to see her walk down the isle towards me in a big white dress, so she can be wed to me. I'll never feel her lips on my lips. I'll never feel her naked body under me in the heat of passion in the night.

I sat quietly on the couch in my house flipping through my photo album. I never got the chance to show this to Ronnie. I planned to fill the whole book by graduation, so I could give it to her as a present. Ronnie loved to take pictures. She would always say memories were important, and I would always take it to heart. The photo album was filled with pictures of all our friends, but mostly, me and Ronnie. And with every picture I see of her my heart would swell up even more. My heart would get heavy and I would have to look, or do something else fir a while.

I went upstairs and slowly opened the door to the bedroom where Ronnie's was in.

I gently stroked her cheek. It was interesting. She wasn't decaying at all even though she's been sleeping for like what? 4 days? She still looked just as beautiful as ever.

I was bored. I took the liberty of changing her clothes, and cleaning all the blood off of her. She was cold. I looked carefully every 5 minutes to see if her chest would rise and fall, but there's was nothing. Her chest wouldn't move, and it made my heart drop every time.

I left the room. I couldn't look at her lifeless form anymore. When I started to get up, the photo album fell out of my lap, and opened to a random page.

It was a picture of me and Ian at a party, my 18th birthday party. What ever happened to Ian? He's never around anymore. I decided to go visit him just to get out of the house.

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"Oh Klaus, what are you doing here?" Ian's mom said as she opened the door.

"I'm here to see Ian, Carla." I told her.

She nodded her head nervously. Almost as if she didn't want me to see him.

"I'm sorry about Veronica by the way," she said as she gestured me in the house, "how are you holding up?" She added.

I didn't want to lie, but I also didn't want to tell her the truth. "I'm fine, thank you."

She just nodded, and lead me into the living room. "Ian! Klaus is here for you!" She called to him.

"I'll leave you two to talk I'm making lunch right now." She said then headed to the kitchen.