Loving Them Both

Your love is my drug

Maybe I need some rehab, or maybe just need some sleep. I've got a sick obsession, I'm seeing it in my dreams. I'm looking down every ally I'm making those desperate calls. I'm staying up all night hoping , hitting my head against the wall. What you got boy is hard to find, I think about it all t he time. I'm all strung out my heart is fried, I just can't get you off my mind. Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug. Your love, your love, your love. I said your love, your love, your love, is my drug.

Your love is my drug- Ke$ha

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(Charlotte's POV)

How long is he going to stare at me from across the room? When will he make a move? Sure I would do it, but I'm scared. I always try to hang out with him, but he gives me these lame excuses. Maybe I should just stop trying. He doesn't want to be with me, and I just have to accept that. I am one tough cookie, so I don't understand how I could feel this mushy inside with all these feelings. He's the reason why I can't sleep at night. The reason my grades are slipping because all I can think about is him. I look at him everyday and I just know that it's all his fault. This is way more than just some high school crush, but it's not love, not yet anyway. I've been in love with people that don't even know me, it's called fan fiction, but with him it's just different. With him there is a possibility I can be with him, and I don't think he feels the same.

Oh Adrian, what are you doing to me?

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I walked silently to my next class. I no longer walked with Adrian because I never knew what to say. I would always get nervous, and trip over my words. It's crazy right? The thing I want most is to be with Adrian, and here I am trying to stay as far away from him as possible. If he doesn't want to be with me then I'm at least gonna try and not get too attached, but it's hard when the guy you're trying not to get attached to has every class period with you, and on top of that sits next to you in those said classes.

I sat there quietly trying to pay attention to the lesson, but I often caught Adrian's stare on me, and it always got me off track, and put butterflies in my stomach.

I have lunch next, and again, I still sit next to him. Maybe I should get a schedule change. No. I don't want to make a big deal out of that. What did Klaus mean by mate? It's not in any of the spell books. Maybe Zaiden knows since his mom is a werewolf and has a mate. I'll ask during lunch, just to see if I can get a reaction out of Adrian.

Maybe it's not meant to be. I've never really had a boyfriend. I've always been so busy with learning new spells and charms, and other magical stuff. Now that Derek is gone, the witches, and warlocks have been going crazy just having fun learning stuff that they haven't learned before, or couldn't learn, and I want to do the same.

I always understood that Adrian is shy and all, but he seems to want to talk to everyone in our close circle of friends, everyone but me. I'm glad. I rather him just ignore me, instead of just leading me on and breaking my heart.

The bell finally rang and I saw Adrian shoot right out of his seat at rushed out the door.

'Probably to get away from me.' I thought to myself bitterly.

Normally I would have just walked to the cafeteria, but this week, and my whole obsession with Adrian has hit me like a ton of bricks all week. No longer did I walk. I dragged myself to the cafeteria. Knowing that I'm just one step closer to the end of the school day. Why did I even come back to school, and human school at that? It seems like the reason that I came up with about a moth ago was no longer important for me to remember.