I remember~
I remember when I met you
all the moments we had
when you looked me in my dark brown eyes
and I thought you could see through my soul
the moments when we talked
and smiled
i miss those moments
especially you
I wish you still loved me
the way you did before
why did you stop?
why did you stop talking to me
why did you stop looking me in the eye why did you abandoned me
did I do something?
I always wonder that
I also wonder if any of that was true
I remember when we dated
I felt so loved
but then we would fight
and breakup
but then get back together because we loved each other so much
everything was great
but all the sudden everything stopped and I don't know why I still don't
oh god I love you
and I miss you
you probably don't feel the same anymore
which makes me depressed
every
single
freaking
day
I act like I'm ok
I have to say
I'm fine
I'm okay
when really I'm not
and when I try to tell people what's wrong
they don't care
they don't care that every single day
and night
I sob
I cry
I gotta admit
I'm really tired
tired of you not loving me
tired of being depressed
tired of not being hungry
because of you~
my fingers were trembling as I was about to press send
but I couldn't
I had to back space almost a million words.
I remember just yesterday
when I was at the party
where everybody
and I mean everybody!
in the whole school was at.
It was at the park and I was with my friends
sitting down on the grass eating fries
watching everyone laugh and smile and play and run around.
My friend looked behind me
"oh no"
"I see him"
I looked back
and you were gone
but what from I heard
you walked passed
with another person
and as I heard those words
my heart skipped a beat
"another girl"
~no no no please no
please stop make it stop
why does it hurt so much?~
We tried to look for you
so we can catch your cheating ass
but it was too late
you were gone
somewhere with another person
who was not me.
My friends were having fun
"ooh so much drama" one said
"I know I love it!" the other said
it wasn't fun
it was scary
and I wasted the rest of the night looking for nothing.
at home I asked you
and it took you so long to answer
you kept on denying
but I can tell when you lie
I knew that because I dated you once
I hate how you don't tell me the truth anymore.
The rest of the night I just sobbed
catching my breath so my family couldn't hear their depressed child and sister
from her bedroom.
But it wasn't the first time
I had worse
way worse.
~all because of you my love~
💙🌑Goodnight🌑💙
🌙✨Sweet Dreams✨🌙
