What's the point?
in trying
I've tried so hard
but I get nothing from you
so what's the point of trying
to talk to you
to look at you
it's not how it used to be
if I hang around you
you avoid me
it's like if I try
to talk to you
or look at you
you feel awkward
why the fuck?
I don't understand
you just all the sudden
stopped
like nothing happened between us
you are so pathetic
i want to stop loving you
but I can't
why did you do this to me
I feel like I can't ever be happy again
you loved me
then you left
like a father leaving a daughter
everyday when I go to school
I have to put a stupid smile on my face
when I'm around everybody and it is so annoying. I have to act like I'm not depressed or heartbroken like I'm fine
when I'm not.
when I'm at home I either cry
or sob
sob so bad that I have to cover my mouth so no one will hear me
almost
every
day
and it sucks
I'm not my happy like I used to be
and I feel like I'll never be again.
~I'm not angry
I'm in pain
and you put me here
the first person who was supposed to love me more than anything~
