Loud Silence

Chapter 13

Quick Author's note:

I just ate two chocolate chip cookies from Jewel Osco, warmed up, and downed a half of a water bottle so I feel pretty prepared to write this next chapter. With that being said, I understand it's been like 6 months since I last updated and then a year before that. I understand that it hasn't been very consistent. But please bare with me for a sec, I'm a junior and so high school has been crazy, and I mean like I'm barely holding onto my sanity but I'm still holding on as best as I can and I decided that I'm going to start reading and writing again as a form of keeping myself sane. Maybe my writing will be even better now. 

Now enjoy this much needed update on the latest with silent Willow and her boy problems.

Willow's P.O.V.

I sleep the rest of Sunday away so that I don't have to deal with my thoughts anymore, I'm turning myself nocturnal in the process, but I guess that's okay. I don't wake up till it's past dinner time and the house is unusually quiet. There's usually the soft sound of the tv playing in the background, the loud bear sounding snore from my dad passed out on the couch, and well, I don't know about my mom anymore. 

But I don't hear anything, I pad down the stairs bare footed and look around. There's no car in the drive-way so I'm guessing my dad's at the bar, that means I have the house to myself again. My thoughts trail off to the night I had Adrian and Noah over. I squeeze my eyes shut and shake my head, as if I could shake them right out of my mind, but I can't. It's like they're permanently there and I have no way of getting them out. 

I'm rooted in my spot as every memory hits me at once. First it's Noah. All the way back to when he pinned me against the lockers. My mind zeroes in on his hands and how they feel against my skin, how they felt against my waist. As his hands met my waist and pushed my back into the cold lockers, part of his fingers pushed up the shirt in the back, causing the bare tips to brush against my skin but my fit of rage never paid attention to it. 

The next physical encounter was in the boxing ring, when I could feel every part of his body against mine, when I could feel the electricity of his lips hovering right over mine.

Then there's Adrian in all of his cuteness and sweetness, and his sweet and succulent kisses.

And Noah in all his fiery passion and deep down soft side. 

My eyes fly open when the sound of a car driving into the drive way wakes me from the trance I was in. I notice my dad pull up, funny how he's able to drive when I know he was intoxicated. But what I also notice is the unmistakable outline of another person. The outline of a woman that I can already tell isn't my mother. I watch as both bodies in a tangled mess of each other stumble in. My dad doesn't notice me as he's too focused on the woman in front of him. I stay as quiet as possible against the wall as I watch what folds in front of me. The woman is blond with sagging skin in places where it shouldn't. She has a cigarette in between her index and middle finger, she's wearing a grease stained pinkish colored shirt that show's she's obviously not wearing the right sized bra but there's a burning infatuation in my dad's eyes that only he understands. They disappear up the stairs and into my parents room.

I let out a breath I didn't realize I was holding in until then and sigh with disappointment. I grab a water bottle and head back up the stairs quietly having lost my appetite. I lay back down and hope that slumber takes me again. Which thankfully it does.

* Next Morning *

In the morning I get dressed quickly in a pair of low rise jeans, my converse and a white crop top that shows maybe an inch of my torso, I grab my black jean jacket and layer it over, I even decide to throw on some red lipstick and a little mascara. I just feel like dressing up a little. 

I walk down the stairs and out the house, starting my walk to hell, wait sorry, school. Hopefully today isn't too bad. I really hope today isn't what it's been like. I hope those boys stay out of my head for the sake of my sanity. 

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I'm going to stop here and hopefully pick back up tomorrow, I'm going to try and make the next chapters as interesting as possible, until next time. 
~Yours truly