Fall Apart

One

Confused.

Sad. Scared. Ashamed. Nervous. Angry. Stupid. Helpless. Hopeless. Lost.

This is everything I'm feeling as I sit on the curb, a couple blocks from Lucas's dorm.

How can this even be happening? How could I let myself go this far? With a baby, things will change. What about Lucas? Will he run away? Or Riley, Farkle, and Zay? I'm sure they'll hate me now. And my music? I've been going to small events or venues around here, but if my manager finds out I'm pregnant, I'll be cut from the company. Oh, what about my parents. Everything is falling apart. But no one knows it.

I stand up and stretch as it starts to rain. I honestly don't care. This is way more important. Lucas is a dad now and he has a right to know. But I can't tell him, he could just leave like my dad did. But he wouldn't. But he could.

I slowly walk in the building, up the stairs, and to his room. I'm so afraid I can't even think straight. My hands start shaking as I knock on the door. Tears fill my eyes as I hear footsteps coming to greet me.

"Maya hey! Wait, what's wrong?" Lucas says, gesturing me to enter.

I stare at the floor as I drag my feet to the couch. "I-I have something to t-tell..." I couldn't even finish the sentence without becoming hysterical.

"Maya relax, it's okay. Just tell me." He says rubbing my back.

How can you not know what this is about? I think to myself. "I don't know what to...how to...tell you." I resist looking into his eyes.

He doesn't say anything, just gives me time to breath. I don't think any words will make this sound okay. I reach my hand in my pocket and pull out the positive test. I hold it out where he can see it, my hands still shaking.

He stares at it for what seems like hours. "Just say something already." I cry to him, but he still is silent.

He stands up and looks out the window. "Maya, I can't do this."

That's all I heard before I ran out the door.

Hey guys! I'm so so so so sorry that I'm late. It's been a long day and things didn't quite work out. Very sorry. Vote and I hope you like the new story!