1 girl 2 minds

The secret I could never tell

The hallways look like a long empty pathway filled with people laughting, smiling, talking but I never understood why, "Kate, Kate" I turned around to see who was yelling my name it was Taylor, "hey are you free after school?" I paused for a momment shocked "ya sure why"  I listened attentively to see what she was going to say, "come over to my house we'll hang out" my eyes grew big with surprise "ya ok ill find you after school". She then left smilling and I went off to my first period class, Taylor and I had to do a french project together I told her I would just do the whole thing because it would be easier, she thought I was cool and said that we should start hanging out more because she wants to transform me into a popular pretty girl, I thought about what she said I'v never been popular or pretty but maybe its because I dont go to the hairdresser or shop at a place that sells clothes for more than $5.00, but I was exited for taylor and I to be friends she was very popular and all I want is to fit in for a change. 

"RRIINNGG" The bell finally rang, I feel like this day had been going on forever I ran to Taylor's locker to meet her. we took the bus to her house, her house is huge its so big i think it might just be a hotel. "Well come in" taylor motioned me towards her, I followed her as she led me to her room, it was a very nice room it was pink with a huge bed that could probably fit 3 people.

I sat on her bed and looked at every detail of her room, there was a huge closet filled with beautiful clothes. I turned to Taylor to see what she was doing, she was taking her clothes off "what are you doing" I asked "calm down I'm putting some comfortable clothes on, have you never seen female body parts before" I looked at her trying to avoid her sarcastic tone "so what are we gonna do now" she motioned me towards the bathroom, as I silently followed her she started slowly taking my clothes off "what are you doing" I yelled while pushing her away. "I'm going to give you some of my clothes you look like you shop at a garage sale", I looked at her a little upset "then why are you taking my clothes off" Taylor looked at me "you know what nevermind, put these clothes on" she trew some clothes at me and although I could tell she was mad at me I didnt care because these were the most beautiful clothes I had ever seen. 

After I put the clothes on and came out Taylor  looked at me with a bit of dissapointment "Its getting there but we still have to go to the hairdresser and the nail salon and put some makeup on you" thoughts on wheter I was ever going to be good enough of not flew into my mind, Taylor just wasn't empressed with me yet, but I will do whatever it takes to get her to like me. "take these clothes and tomorrow we'll go to the mall, we have tons of work to do and then ill introduce you to some people", I was exited to be going to the mall with Taylor I dont have any friends so iv never really been to the mall.    I couldnt sleep because thoughts of going to the mall with taylor overwhlemed me, and I wonder what she meant by she would introduce me to some people. "You asshole get out of my house I hate you" I suddently woke up and got out of my bed it was 11:00 in the night, I knew by that voice that my mom was yelling and after the pattern iv been seeing lately I could only imagine that it was another strange men that she had brought into the house. I peeked in the door to see what was going on, all I could see was a big, tall, muscular man holding and grabbing on to my mom followed by him knocking her out with his fist. I squealed and suddently covered my mouth, I was scared that I may have been next.

He saw me and approached me I tried to run, but my bedroom door coudn't lock I tried to hold the door but he pussed it open. "AAAAHHHHHH" I tried to yell, but I knew that no one would come and help and I'v always hidden from my mothers crazy boyfriends but this time I just couldnt run anymore. I felt pain and I couldnt do anything about it I couldnt controll it I just cried, he pulled me down and threw me on the bed and the next thing I knew I was looking to the ceiling asking for help, I just wanted it to end. He lay flat on top of me and I never imagined my first time being de flowered to be this cruel and un-loving, it was very painful and I yelled alot, the rest just seemed like a blur of emotions and memories. I woke up unnaware of what was going on, I was alone and it had seemed like everything was just over, all I could only think of was what had happened last night, it all happened so fast. I would go and get help but there's no one to ask for help when your living in hell...