1 girl 2 minds

Escaping The Inescapable

The rain pours hard, the wind blows coldly on my skin. I can hear each droplet of rain falling as they dance, its a dark cold night. abandoned, lonely, cold and scared are all the emotions going through me right now. I'v never felt this way before, I have no one to go to, no one to turn to and for once in my life I feel so alone. I feel like I'm the only person in the world and I have no one, no one to talk to, no one to love and who will love me back.

every one needs someone, but I have no one. where do I go now and who do I turn to. I have no friends, no family and as from today I have no mother. Even if she was drunk and high all the time it still felt nice to know, that I had a figure there even if it was a dark empty figure.

I can't explain all the emotions I'm feeling right now, but I am for sure certain that my childhood is gone. I never had a childhood, from the day I wad born I practically raised myself. I wasn't raised in the safest or the richest neighborhood, I never had the nicest or most expensive clothing, I never had the most friends. But once thing I did have that no one could take away from me was my self dignity, my characteristic to be a strong, independent individual and now even Thats been stripped away from me.

Everything has been stripped away from me, don't I deserve happiness too just like everyone else. Aren't I allowed to be happy, to live a great normal happy life. When you've hit rock bottom, there's no where else to go but up. As I'm wondering in the streets in this pouring rain I'm wondering were to go, all the stores are closed and I'm scared and cold.

I see a bright light from a vehicle heading my way, I hold my breath for I have never been this terrified. I try to walk a little faster but, the car catches up to me. A black spotless Audi, the window rolls down beside me and I continue to walk while taking a few steps back away from the car. "hey baby what's a sweet, young, pretty little thing like you doing out here in this storm", I hold my breath I am terrified to answer yet breath.

I keep on walking trying to take some deep breaths, and ignoring him hoping that he will go away. "HEY, I'm talking to you", his voice grows louder and more aggressive as I try to not be terrified. I panic, I run as fast as I can but, my legs are no match for a car. He aggressively grabs me by the waists pulls me closer, and grows me if the back of his car. I try to kick, scream, yell for help but there is no one on the street this late in the rain "don't worry baby just relax, I'm gonna take good care of you". The door slams shut and I close my eyes trying to forget about what's happening, and hoping that this is all a dream...