I need help, I'm attempting to stay happy. But let me dump my negatives on you.
Negative--
1) My mom is sick (in many ways).
2) Me and her live with a verbally abusive man who won't leave. (Her ex)
3) School is full of drama.
4) I'm trying to keep up.
5) I'm bending over backwards for my friends (it hurts but I do it for them).
6) I'm trying not to hurt on the inside.
7) I'm forcing myself to be positive.
8) Everyday I try not to cry.
9) I've been in the dark for over two years.
10) My crush is confusing.
11) I keep the tough act up.
12) Everyone around me except for a few, have a boyfriend/girlfriend. (Lol, single Pringle)
13) I've been bullied.
14) My friends are hurting, which kills me.
15) The year before this year (2017 so it was 2016) I moved and didn't get to tell my friends from my previous school goodbye.
16) I got to a new school.
17) I had originally moved 5 times before settling behind IMS.
18) I was reminded of my past.
19) I have lost 3 family members (deceased)
20) I've lost 5 family friends (deceased) they were all close.
21) I almost lost my Grandpa, he came back from Salt Lake, and he didn't know anything not even his own name. He is my hero, that killed me. I had a concert that night, he never missed any of my concerts. That night no one was there for me. And him in the hospital was a reminder that he missed my concert.
22) I cut myself once, and then I quit after a picture of my friends flashed in my mind.
23) People often put me down.
24) I force SOME smiles.
Call me a liar if you want to, but this is all true. This stuff does happen.
Positives--
1) I made new friends at IMS.
2) School is also filled with happiness.
3) Challenges are amazing.
4) I love seeing my friends smile.
5) Just so you know, the pain is worth it in the end.
6) I can't change the past, but I can change the present.
7) I succeed at not crying.
8) My crush may like me.
9) I can at least smile genuinely.
10) I play violin.
11) Still have some family.
12) I'm doing okay in school.
13) My teachers actually like me.
That's it. Uhmmmm, give me some advice. I can repay the favor, by doing the same thing or I can post many chapters, or make them better.
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Courtesy Call (Levi X Oc)
FanfictionBlake Hanson has always been a quiet girl. Her past still haunts her and will never let her go, when she joins the Survey Corps, she is put in Squad Levi with her remaining sister Mina Hanson, but what goes down will only hurt more.
