Thee Journey

Hidden Secrets

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Sorry for the delay in publishing the next chapter... Had been off wattpad...

Neways hope you like the journey...

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Its moring and I haven't slept the whole night... With sore eyes and a confused look on my face I get ready and go to college...

I see my friends having fun... I was too low so I just go and sit at my place...

Then I see Emily walking in the class... I Put my head down and try to avoid. But, she sees me and comes and sit besides me...

She pinches me on my arm and wakes me up and says,"Wassup... Why are you sad... You should be happy my dad likes you..."

I reply,"Yaa I know..." In a heavy voice.

She says, "Roy, were you crying... Whats happend to you...?"

I'm like, "Nothing... Nothing..."

Then I look at her and asked, "Are you hiding someting from me???"

She stares at me for a second and replies, "Yes there is... But, I tell you now... Will say when the time is right."

I was like is it something bad... She said no... And then the lecture starts so I couldn't talk to her about it...

Later after lecture was trying to get back to the topic because it was eating me up and was not able to concentrate on anything that I do...

So later after the college day ends while walking home  I stop her and ask her in a stern voice,"Will you tell me what it is...?"

She says, "I didn't want to hurt you.. But, It was a dare..." and she cries and runs away...

I'm standing there like a fool thinking all weird things like what could be the dare... Or did I just get played...???

I have no idea of whats going on and whats the truth so feeling broken...

Soo I go home and upload a poem...

Trust

Your words begin to mean nothing to me,
You continue to lie under your breath.
Had me convinced that you were different,
Yet here I am, with a broken trust.

My heart torn out from the center of my chest,
Ripped into a million pieces.
You promised me over and over
That you would be there for me.

But I soon came to realize
That you're no different than the other people I met.
Each event replayed itself,
And each time you betrayed me.

Again I am standing here in this empty hole,
Listening to the echoes of your promises fade away.
I really thought you would change for me,
I really believed that you cared for me.

Oh, how wrong I was
To put my trust in the likes of you.
The pain I am feeling now
Is the pain I'll forever retain.

Over and over again,
I am left with nothing.
No matter what I do,
I always get the blunt end of the stick.

Normally I would say I'm to blame,
But sadly I do not deserve this claim.
My eyes have reopened
To never again let you gain my trust.

In the world we live in now
Has very little, if any,
Able bodies that I can trust,
Is it so that only I can earn this trust?

I don't believe I'll ever truly understand the meaning of trust.
I won't live by this word,
For its meaning is far too easily broken,
And very difficult to fix.

No longer will I allow trust to govern my life,
No longer will I allow your love in my life.
I stand here alone,
With a broken trust. 

My last words to whom it may concern,
My trust in you was a privilege.
You continued to break the very string
That held my trust for you.

In the end,
You betrayed me with more than I can say,
Left me With a broken trust and a broken heart.

I switch my phone off and then go to sleep...

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