xxv. [you're] the reason

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i waved a bye to you and
you did the same.

you was so sorry that
you made me feel so worried.
you said that you got sick
that's why you didn't came to school
for a week.

and i notice that you became
paler and thinner.
how bad your sick that you
became like that?

i'm about to get on the train
but suddenly
you pulled me again into a hug.

"yoongi-ah you're missing me too
much." i joked.

"yeah, i just really miss you."

i was taken a back by your answer.

i thought you was just joking but
you really seemed so serious about it.

you let go of me, "don't hurt yourself
again soojung." you said seriously.

i'm going to talk when you stop me and just pushed me inside the train.

i can't do anything when the door
closed and i just saw you waving
your arms from the outside and
showing me your gummy smile.

the train slowly moving but
before it move faster i clearly
show that you mouthed,

"i love you."

the train starts to move faster and i just felt my heart beat do the same.

i can't think straight
on what you said.
i'm too shock because it was
so sudden but despite of that,

there's a part of me wanting
to keep myself alive.

thanks for being the reason,
min yoongi.

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