Hi guys.
I just want to share an old video. I never expect that I'll be crying for this for the second time. I mean, I've watched this when it was released and it shocked me that the effect's still the same.
Why am I sharing this? I just want to make you cry too since I cried today haha.
Other than that, I realized that we've been missing a lot.
We always forget about the simple things. Sometimes we failed to see the good one because there's too much to see. But the true happiness can only found in your side.
A guy wanted to work hard so he can be wealthy... but didn't realize that he's been wealthy enough to have a loving wife and a son. He didn't realize their value until thry are gone. Another example is a beautiful girl who has a lot of suitors. Behind those smiles are her darkest secret. She belongs to a broken family so she seek love to others. But then she always dump them because she's never contented. Until the time no one wanted to pursue her, and she started to regret playing and got depressed... even tried of committing a suicide.
Those are some things that we may experience though there's a lot to mention.
And as I think about those things.... I've realized many things.
Everyone, it's not Pledis why Nu'est didn't make it, it's our fault. Stop blaming everyone because we are at fault here. We didn't become loyal enough to make Nu'est strong.
I know there are a lot of people who realize this, but I just want to point it out.
Pledis did took care of Nu'est, maybe they lack on promoting them and handling them, but you see, in every production, in every music videos, it did cost a lot. It's not the common MV's that you see. It's not cheap and it has a concept which is well thought.
Pledis might failed us, but they still care. The people around them loves them because they can see their hardworks.
So please, everyone, stop saying it's Pledis fault because we are at fault too. We have a big part of keeping Nu'est because we are the one to support and buys their album.
So instead of blaming Pledis (because I keep reading comments about it), let's just promote them and make Kfans go back.
We need to get their loyalty back so I hope we'll stop fanwars between different groups (SVT for example) and keep giving love to each other.
I can't believe that I almost let Nu'est go. There's this time that I wanted to delete my account and just focus on studying but I can't find myself doing it. At first, I asked myself, 'Why?'
Because I'm a horrible fan back then. I can't support them 24/7, I can't update the book and promote them. I'm slowly losing my affection to Nu'est and to anything because I'm too preoccupied.
But then, something happened last year.
It pains me every time I tried to remember. What would you feel when you find out that the one you trust the most, the one you look up, suddenly destroyed your trust? Painful, isn't it?
That's my father out there. I'm trying so hard to please him and to make him proud and yet.... in just one mistake, everything's in chaos.
In short, I failed one subject that holds me back to proceeding in Clinic 1. I was left out with my friends, my mom's hurt and we are broke, because my parent's not getting any younger so the expenses are pretty heavy because of their checkups and medicines.
I lost everything in an instant... and I didn't do anything to prevent that.
I can't tell it to my friends because we are all devastated and preoccupied with paper works and Laboratories. I can't find myself crying in front of my sister because she's also hurting, so I need to stand strong and make her feel that she can hold on to me. In the end I found myself crying in the bathroom or in my bed, trying not to make any sound so no one can notice.
Then after I poured it out, I realize why am I sulking if I still have my mother and siblings?
To sum it up, I proceeded in my life. I ignore the painful remarks by my surroundings, I tried to become stronger even if I still cried every night, I asked God for forgiveness to all of my weaknesses and failures .. and I found myself with Nu'est again.
How can I forget? Music makes me alive. I can escape from the painful reality and Nu'est can lift up my world.
How can I forget? They are one of my inspiration and I am close of completely shutting them out.
Thanks to some friends here that I controlled myself for letting it happen. Thanks for making my senses back. I don't know what to do if I deleted my account.
I found good friends here, and I can learn a lot of things. So I am truly grateful that I found wattpad.
Nu'est is not an addiction. They are an inspiration.
And always ask Him ☝ he won't fail you.
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Btw, don't mind the title of this update. I just read something interesting and I'm getting into it. If you know this, I would gladly hear your thoughts about it. It's quite interesting for me haha! And also, I am a bit random. I tend to speak or tell something out of nowhere and is off-topic so please don't mind it haha. And sorry for any mistakes 🙇
Kufungisisa - Non-psychotic mental disorders that are very common in primary care settings in Zimbabwe.
