Poems and Lonesomes

For The Birds

My heart is clumsy,
That's why I feel
So easily for you.
It's not just my heart that is clumsy
I'm kind of a dooser in general.
As kids we are told to
Stay away from clumsy people,
Because they can mess things up;
But what you did was not my fault.

After some thought I realized that
We are not told to stay away
From clumsy people but
Clumsy people are easy to blame
Those messages are warnings
To clumsy people about who to trust
To be careful of dropping
Our hearts when we fall.

There are many things
We learn as kids
That is why I knew you
Were a liar liar
Because at the time you
Seemed so hot it would
Not surprise me if your
Pants were on fire.

It's probably why I was blind to the truth
Because your smoke burned
My eyes with what
I thought was love,
But it was the reason why
I cried so much
When I was with you;
Why I stumbled and fell
More than usual
And every time you didn't catch me,
My heart would fracture a little
With every impact.
It may not have seemed
Like much at first
But a little goes a long way
And something fragile
Can only be dropped
So many times before it breaks.

These things we learn as kids
Don't just teach us
What is wrong,
But teach us the signs of
Who is wrong.

Just like that guy knew
She was a cheater cheater
Pumpkin eater,
Not because he noticed
Her hard shell protecting
Her secrets,
But because he knew
She has swallowed so many seeds
That are not his.

What you did made me so
Stressed and anxious
That when I was told
Good night
Sleep tight
I had a difficult time
Trying to keep
The little things from
Bugging and bitting me.

When life gave me you
I was so happy
But you where the
Bitterness of betrayal.
When life gave me a lemon
I squeezed out it's contents
And called it lemonade
Because the easy peasy
Things to do is to
Quickly swallow the sour truth
And forget about
How bad it really is;
That's what I did.
I drank your glass of excuses
And got high on
Your (a)peal
While your intoxicating
Words poisoned me.

I started to change
Things about me
Consciously and unconsciously
To the point where
I hardly recognized myself
I was a stranger to me
It went against everything
I was taught as a kid
Because I didn't listen to the signs
I should have known;
Stranger Danger!
It doesn't mean
"Don't talk to people you don't know"
It means that if you don't
Know you anymore
Danger!
Danger!
Get out!

What comes around
Goes around
You came into my life
I thought you went around me
Like I was the center
Of your universe.
But in reality,
You came into my life
And went around me
Like a driver driving around
A sick dog abandoned
On the side of the road.
The only reason you stopped
Was because you felt sorry
And pitied me
You thought I was cute
But then you realized
How close I was getting with you
And that if you wanted a dog
You could always go to the kennel
And get a
Clean,
Healthy
Dog instead of a
Sick,
Clumsy
One that someone left.

Treat others they way
You want to be treated.
I guess I never treated
You the best I could have,
Because I treated you good
And you treated me
Like shit.
You left me for the birds.

We learn as kids
About what is wrong
And we learn the signs of
Who are wrong.
We learn that clumsy people
Are easy to blame
And should be left alone;
And I was left to pick up
My broken heart
On my own.

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So I'm back on Wattpad after very very long time, and I was going through some things and I noticed this poem was never published and it's been sitting here collecting dust for a little over 3 years, so here.