Don't Let Me Fall Asleep (Jatt oneshot)

"Don't go to bed yet love, I think its too early..."

Don't let me lie down and shut my eyes because I know when I wake up you'll be gone. That warmth that put me to sleep the night before will creep silently from between the sheets of my bed built for two and not return.

"If my wall clocks tells me that its four in the morning, I'll give it hell"

My eyes are red and the sting to open again, but I'll force myself to snap them open at your every shuffle underneath me and grip my hand tighter onto your bagging shirt to let you know I'm awake and need you. I'll force myself to looked at the blurred red numbers on the digital clock and cringe as I see how close to morning its becoming.

"Cause I've been trying way too long to try and be the perfect song, when our hearts are heavy burdens we should have to bear alone"

I'd try to be perfect to keep you here when I wake up when really the only time I'll be able to see the softness that brings me to tears in your eyes is after I've tried too hard and shattered under the pressure.

"You're all that I think about, all that I dream about, how I'd ever sleep without a goodnight kiss from goodnight you,"

You'd hold me back when my fists balls tightly with the all the energy I had left in my body that'd kill for a bit of sleep, and kiss me on top of my head telling me you were still awake as well, willing me to sleep.

"And sing for me softly, your song for tomorrow and tell me my names hidden in there sonewhere"

You're voice gravle with fatigue as you whisper into the black void surrounding the two of us, "Go to sleep love, I'm right here." and finally, I give into my being's wishes and shut my eyes, not risking to the burn that I know is to come if I were to go against everything and open them again and let my breathing even as I feel my body slip and dread the morning when I wake up alone again in my dreams.

"And there you were, I saw my juliet come gracefull down the stairs,"

My eyes open quickly and I scan my surroundings, searching for something, anything, that tells me you haven't left me in the night again. Then it comes, the creak of the sixth step that lead up to the second floor and the creak in the hardwood floor outside the bathroom door before youre mess of shaggy brown hair apears in the off white door frame, glowing from the early morning sun.

"It's hard to miss the way her eyes light up the room and still the air"

My eyes brighten as you walk closer and take a seat at the edge of the bed, making it dip, forcing my figure to tip in your direction. And your  brown eyes create the best color of gold I've ever seen as it refracts the light from the window opposite.

"Just feel her lips lock on to every breath I take and breath it in"

My breath gets caught in my throat as you pull me in to kiss my lips that are dry from the nights sleep, but your actions show no protest to the slight ashy-ness they deliver to your pair of lips that are never anything less than velvet.

"Do you feel us falling? I can feel us falling"

And you pull back, taking a shaken breath to say the words we'd both avoided before. Your words uneven and hands shaken you speak,

"I love you,"

"So goodnight moon and good night you"

And nights after that I cease my tossing and turning, your arms keeping me still and my breathing even throughout the entire night as I keep my head reste on your chest, your hearbeat becoming my lulaby.