sorrow

one.

Dan:
I look up at the stars. They're so far away, yet they feel so much closer than most humans, closer than the most important human in my life. You see, i'm madly in love with him. The problem is, he hasn't been loving me for a while now. We were together once, loved each other so much it hurts, but after i made that horrible mistake, he despises me. It's all my fault. We were so happy together. He made me feel special, made me feel like the luckiest person on earth. He was the light in my dark life. My sun, my moon, and all of my stars. He was.. My everything.

"Hey Dan?" I'm sitting on the couch when i hear my room mate, and once lover, shout from the kitchen.
"What's up Phil?" I yell. It takes a few seconds for him to respond, allthough i'm not sure why. "Would you like some eggs? I'm making scrambeled eggs with toast." I just had some toast already, so i decline his offer. "Nah thanks Phil, i'm good." No response. He's probably busy making his eggs. I keep scrolling on tumblr until i hear the boy shout again, this time slightly annoyed. "Dan please help, the gass isn't working!" I let out a small chuckle, because Phil is literally the clumsiest person on this entire planet.

As soon as I walk in, I see Phil standing in his pyjama's struggeling with the gass. "Are you okay over there?" I ask. "What do you think Dan? Ugh this is the third time i'm having trouble with the gass this week." he says, clearly annoyed. I take a step towards him. "Okay I'll help. Just keep pressing this button, and turn the other one around." I see Phil's widened eyes staring at the gass, trying to understand what i'm saying. "O-okay i guess i got it now" he says quietly. He tries again, but no succes. "oH JESUS IT'S NOT WORKING" he yells frustrated. I can't help but laugh at his temper. This is why i once fell in love with him. His clumsy, cute personality. As i stand in the kitchen, my mind wanders off to the times when Phil and I were still together. God, I wish with all of my heart and soul to go back to that time. Kissing him, and feeling my heart flip over each time he touched my hands. And his eyes, oh, those light blue eyes. Only seeing them could light up the entire universe. Those exact same eyes are staring at me right now.

"Dan?? Hey mate?? Earth to Daniel?" I snap back into reality, and realize i've been standing in the kitchen without saying anything for a few seconds. "Dan, what's up?" Phil asks, as he notices i'm finally listening to what he says. "Nothing, i just thought about something." I say, trying to avoid Phil's gaze, to make sure i won't get lost in his eyes again. "Oh okay, well ehm, could you maybe make some eggs for me? I think the gass hates me." I smile, and nod while i take the eggs out of the fridge. "Thanks D-slice" Phil shouts. I hear him walk off to the living room, and fall on the couch with a sigh. I sigh at the same time, but for a very different reason.