sorrow

two.

Phil:
I'm hiding a huge secret from him. In fact, a few huge secrets. But I will never feel guilty, because what he did was way worse. It's been nearly one year since it happened, and we're still friends, but I'll never think the same of him again. Never.

I'm walking on the pavement on my way to the train station when I get a text from Dan.

Daniel: Aye Phil could u get some popcorn from Sainsburys on ur way home? I've planned a Game of Thrones binge night w PJ, u could join us if u want?

Phil: Sorry Dan, i'm not coming home tonight.

Daniel: Lol what? why?

Phil: I've got an unexpected meeting with Martyn in manchester, so i'll be at my family home for a few days.

Daniel: Oh ok, have fun w the fam :)

I lock my phone and can't do anything but feel guilty about what I've just said. I've lied about going to my family. I keep lying to Dan. It really hurts, lying to him, but I know it'll hurt the both of us if  I tell him the truth. Maybe faking hapiness if better than sadness.

I enter the train, and take a seat next to an old lady with a dog. It's a corgi, I love corgi's. Dan and I planned on getting one when we were still together. We planned on getting a house. We wanted to get married, have children, all those plans, but they all fell apart in one moment, when Dan did this stupid, horrible thing. I look outside and see the little villages just outside of London. I get lost in my thoughts when I see all the cute little houses, sorted in rows, with tons of trees surrounded, and imagine me and Dan with our children and a dog. As soon as i realize i'm at my destination, i shake my head and rush out of the train.

Dan:
I run downstairs when i hear the doorbell ring. I open my arms ready for a hug as soon as I open the door, with PJ standing on the other side of it. We give each other a quick hug and walk inside quickly, because it's pouring with rain. "Hey Danny" PJ says with a smirk. I roll my eyes "PJ stop it you know i'm cringing when you call me Danny" I poke him in his shoulder. I walk up the stairs, with PJ behind me. "Rrrready for some Game of Thrones?" I ask, way to excited. "I sure am my friend" PJ jokes back. "Not that it matters, but where is Phil?" I put on the TV while I answer "He said he's going to his family in Manchester."

Phil:
I put my hoodie on as soon as I walk out of the station, because it has started to rain even harder. I walk forward, turn right, open the garden gate, and knock on the door. I get a smile on my face when i see my girlfriend open the door. I walk in and give her a kiss. I look deep into her dark brown eyes. Words can't describe how much I love her. "I love you Cat." I whisper, saying my thoughts out loud. "I love you too, Phil." she whispers back.