Hello, Death (COMPLETED)

Day 32.3

FEB 27 at 08:44 PM

Natalie : Athos?

Athos : You have nothing to tell me so don't call my name.

Natalie : Sigurado ka bang wala akong sasabihin?

Athos : Alam kong wala. 

Athos : You saw a picture of a skeleton with scythe on social media and you thought of me. You're just going to ask me if I go around with a scythe in hand. I don't. 

Natalie : Eh di anong itsura mo?

Athos : Bakit mo kailangang malaman?

Natalie : If I'm going to die, am I going to see you?

Athos : I don't want you to see me.

Natalie : Why not? Ayaw mo kong mamatay?

Athos : Sleep.

Natalie : Tss. Ano ngang itsura mo?

Athos : I look like a human when I need to look like a human.

Natalie : When you need to look like a human?

Natalie : Ibig sabihin, minsan hindi tao ang itsura mo?

Athos : Yes. I take on the form of something or someone that the dying will be familiar and comfortable with. If I need to look like a dog, I will be a dog to that someone's eyes.

Natalie : Pwede ka ring maging bagay? Bukod sa hayop?

Athos : Yes. I took on the form of a grand piano recently.

Natalie : Pano kapag ako na ang susunduin mo? Anong form ang kukunin mo?

Athos : The woman who raised you.

Natalie : That woman hates me.

Athos : It's just your opinion.

Natalie : Can I ask a favor?

Athos : What?

Natalie : Kapag kukunin mo na ko, just be in your true form.

Natalie : I think I will be comfortable and familiar with you.

Athos : My true form? You don't even know what it is.

Natalie : It's probably a dumb form. I'm sure I'll be familiar with it.

Athos : You sound excited about death.

Natalie : Haha. You sound offended about me being excited.

Athos : You're given a life, Natalie. This life is not a death sentence.

Natalie : But we will all end up dead anyway.

Athos : You get to live every day of your life if you want to. You will only die once.

Athos : But you? Why do you have to die everyday?

Athos : Did you ever ask yourself?

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Athos : It's a life, Natalie. 

Athos : Death is not something to be excited about.

Athos : It's a tragedy whenever we get to fetch human beings who barely live; human beings who are late to hope for a life. There are a lot of souls who wish for a chance to be born and reborn. 

Natalie : There's just...

Natalie : not much in this life to get excited about.

Athos : That's just an opinion. You can always change an opinion.

Athos : This life, Natalie, is not always for you to get excited about. It's not always about knowing exactly what to do day after day. It's not always being motivated every minute of the day.

Athos : This life is a string of choices and dealing with. You make your choices. You deal with choices. Whether the result will make you live or make you die, it's also a matter of choice.

Athos : You don't continue on living because every day is exciting. You continue to live even when life is a shithole because being alive is a privilege given to you. Being alive is a privilege and a chance for you to overturn that shithole into something that will make you at peace.

Athos : Don't whine and ask life to be nicer, or kinder, or better to you. It's not life's task to define you. It's your task to define your life. 

Athos : And don't always call my name just for a scolding. Talking to a death god weakens your life force.

Athos : Stupid.

Natalie : You sound mad.

Athos : Take note of my scolding, stupid human.

Athos : And go to sleep.

Natalie : Okay.

Natalie : I'll take note of your temper, dumb death god.

Natalie : And thank you for the scolding.

Natalie : Goodnight, Athos.

Athos : I told you not to casually call my name.

Natalie : ATHOS. :P

Athos : Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

Natalie : :D