Day 37

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MAR 04 at 06:12 AM

Natalie : Hi.

Natalie: I had a weird but vivid dream last night.

Natalie: Parang... naranasan ko ulit yung ginawa ko nung isang taon.

Natalie: You know...

Natalie: When I slit my wrist and bled.

Natalie: Pero sa panaginip ko, lumitaw ka raw. May mukha ka run eh

Natalie: Pero di ko na maalala pagkagising ko.

Natalie: You called me stupid and scolded me for hurting myself

Natalie: You told me that there's so much in store for me if I would only believe it

Natalie: Gusto raw kitang hawakan pero sabi mo, bawal.

Natalie: At sabi mo, wag kitang titigan.

...

Natalie: I don't know.

Natalie: In my dream, as I bled... I wasn't scared at all.

Natalie: I was sad.

Natalie: I was mourning for myself.

Natalie: Kasi... matagal pala bago mamatay sa excessive bleeding.

Natalie: Every second of it hurt. It hurts so much but I have to keep on bleeding just to die.

Natalie: I was so sad.

Natalie: I was asking you why I have to be alone until the end.

Natalie: I asked you something na di ko eksaktong maalala.

Natalie: Basta ang natatandaan ko lang...

Natalie: I was asking along the lines of...

Natalie: Why isn't death fair to me? 

Natalie: Hindi na nga naging fair yung buhay sakin, pati kamatayan ba naman?

Natalie: I just want to die fast but it felt like it wasn't possible.

Natalie: Tapos, ngumiti ka raw.

Natalie: Sabi mo... you will make it fair for me.

Natalie: That you will bless me with your mercy.

Natalie: Tapos napayapa raw ako. Pumikit na raw ako.

Natalie is typing...

Natalie: Nagising ako after.

...

Natalie: It felt too real.

Natalie is typing...

Natalie: Is that... what happened when I tried to kill myself?

Natalie: Kasi hindi ko na maalala yung mga huling sandali bago ako mawalan ng malay dati.

Natalie: When I woke up, I was in a hospital.

Natalie: The nuns were looking after me.

Natalie: But, is that why you're saving me?

Natalie: As part of your mercy?

...

Natalie: And why...

Natalie: Bakit ngayong araw...

Natalie: Bakit pakiramdam ko...

Natalie is typing...

Natalie: Bakit pakiramdam ko, mamamatay na ko?

Natalie: Am I dying today?

Natalie is typing...

Natalie: Keep your promise, Athos.

Natalie: Sunduin mo ko in your form.

Natalie: Not in that woman's form.

Natalie: Let me meet you and hear you say I'm stupid.

Natalie is typing...

Natalie: Yes.

Natalie: Kung ikaw ang susundo sakin...

Natalie: I think I will be at peace.






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