one of these nights » knj.

hope

we met one gloomy night at the park. the weather forecast said that it would rain. so i went out.

because i loved the rain.

i laid on my back waiting for the rain.

i waited for it to wash away all the negative thoughts that have been pulling me deeper into the sea of my mind.

because nothing would ever help me get back to the surface other than the rain.

and so it came.

the rain started to pour weakly but i knew it would be stronger. i know it is a way to tell me that i can be stronger too. slowly, with patience.

i closed my eyes to feel the rain better.

but you came. and the rain stopped. i was being pulled again back to the abyss of my thoughts. i will suffer again.

what have you done?

i opened my eyes to a sight of a boy who was holding an umbrella.

"did you fall asleep?" you asked. i can't vent out my anger on you. you were just trying to help me, i know.

"no, i didn't." you stayed silent for some time before asking a rather strange question.

"are you going?" why were you asking me that?

"no, i'm not." and why did i say no?

i did not know why i did not choose to go home. i just felt i shouldn't.

"then," you crouched and i saw that you were smiling meekly. your dimples were barely showing. "would you mind to stay with me?"

i know i shouldn't. i don't know you. besides, i should be under the rain and not under your umbrella.

but,

i made the right decision when i stayed.

"okay."

because if i did not, i would not know that other than rain, there was something else that can free me from all of my sufferings.

i guess you really are part of my nightsky, namjoon. you are my rain. and you are really important to me.

because you wash away all my worries.

i don't know how you do it or when it started. but i learned to depend on you more than on rain.

i would only meet you at the park and we would only talk about all the little things. or just stay silent as we adore our surroundings. or you would write poetry. or you would read me a book. or i would tell you a story.

we would do anything.

we just need to be together.

under the nightsky.

and then, i would be fine.