(REWRITING*) JOCK'S SECRET

O! Fuck it!!

2 weeks l8tr -

I left class after the initial storm of teens had died down, my face was contured in anger. Over the past week all the jocks had figured out I was queer/fag/cock sucker/spaz, whatever you wanne call it. Coach was one of those more than common homophobic jack asses so when the guys told him about me I was kicked off the team, told to never show my face again and the cherry ontop was that coach had told my parent. They, like the bastards they are, disowned me and threw me away like common trash.

But HEY! I'm a fighter, today was Friday so this would be my first official week at my new job, being a waiter at Luxy's Diner. The pay was decent $25/hour plus more or less $50 for tips and I work more or less 14 hours a day on Monday's my tips would differ from 5-10 dollars per table. Being a hot wolf in a town full of chicks - even though I'm gay as can be - I do flex on occassion so they increase my tips. Hehe.

I'm a naughty puppy~

I got in my car and stretched it, my car was being tagged daily so my money would dry up constantly, I was currently sleeping in it to save cash, eating cheap microwave food and exercising at the school gym. Brad and I have been talking on the DL since he took my place as star quarterback and if he's seen with me it'll destroy his entire school career (my deciaion, not his) and after only a week of being hated and bombarded with notes and offensive tags my whole wall of confidence I had built up was crumbeling faster and faster. I was back to being the weird recluse in the library with the exceptional muscle tone.

Even the least popular people in school I called my friend 2 weeks ago were turning on me more and more. Apparently if your brave enough to tag my locker or steal my shit your concidered "badass" and "Cool", jesus it was starting to piss me off. More and more people are avoiding me and all the teachers I used to be cool with turned on me. I bairly get time to take notes or even answer tests because they keep saying I need to stop cheating.

I let out a frustrated sigh and started my car, my shift was starting in 20 minutes. I also had to make a stop at a nearby shelter to grab a shower then head off to work.

16 hours l8tr -

'Ugh...' I slump down into my car, driving around town a bit when something catches my attention. I come to a halt infront of a small exit that leads out of my home town, the one I've dreamt of using for so long... maybe now was my chance.

I turned to my left and sped up the road, I could taste freedom, I could see a better place. A place where no one knew me and no one could judge me, a place I'd go even if it ment selling what little soul I had left.

Coming to a dead stop infront of the old bridge, my town's prilimanary border long behind me, I grip the steerong wheel. My heart was hammering, did I really wanne leave so bad. Do I still wanne leave so bad!? Why is it everytime I feel a small quiver of hope it gets ripped from my hands!!?

Slamming my head on the steering, letting out the biggest yawn/groan ever, my eyes burned into the road ahead. I don't have anything left here, my only friend can't really talk to me and... my parent's hate me. Is staying better than leaving? Or is leaving better than staying?

Why does junior year have to be so bad, I was finally in a good place... now I've lost everything. I've lost my friends, family and I will never find a good guy out here. I have the feeling he's just pretending, for my sake.

Brad's POV:

When I finally got home from practice mom had dinner on the table and I noticed a girl in bright pink shorts and a equally bright blue tank top on the couch "Hey sis."

After what felt like years of my sister talking I got to eat dinner and decided to text Neu, like always, he was online and his comment section was littered with insults, U name it. They've said it.

Braddy:

Hey man! Didn't see u 2day. What happend to meetin' in the library?

Neu-wy:

Sorry. Got side tracked. U know, the usuel.

Braddy:

O. Yeah, well wanne meet up 2mrrw? It's friday so u don't have to avoid me and we can actually be normal friends???

Neu-wy: Offline🔴

I frowned at the screen as the green dot next to Neu's name dissapeared.

I sighed and dropped my phone on the night stand 'Why's he being weird? Last week we spent the entire saturday at my place playing video game. Is he starting to push me away?'

As my mind rushed with possible reasons for Neu's actions a loud knock broke my away from my panicked thoughts "Yea?"

My sister poked her head in, she was wearing a stupid grin "I was gonna go for a drink. Wanne join?"