Not a Fairytale/ You Can't Hide Forever

I Love You [11]

*Bebe's pov*

My head was spinning, I wasn't sure what to think about what just happened. All I knew was I needed to talk to Wendy. I made my way to her house and knocked on the door.
"Wendy! It's Bebe! Are you ok?!" I called through the door, praying that she would answer.

After a second, I heard a voice from inside.
"Bebe you uh... can't come in right now!" I could hear pain and worry in her voice.
"Wendy please! Are you okay?" I asked.
"Y-yeah!"
"Then let me come in! I want to talk to you!"
"Bebe-!"
"Please!" There was a pause for a second, but the door slowly creeped open, revealing a sad looking Wendy. I sighed, relived, the stepped in, Wendy backed away from me.
"Hi Bebe..." she said quietly.
"What's wrong?" I begged. She shrugged. It was then when I noticed the arm behind her back.
"Nothing."
"That's not true! Wendy... whats behind your back?" I asked, straining my neck to see.
"Nothing!" She shifted uncomfortably. I looked at her, trying to catch a glimpse of her arm, but that's not what I should've been looking at, it was the floor. The carpet... it had small droplets of blood on it.
"Wendy!" I cried, noticing a drop of blood came from her.

I moved over to her and pulled her arm from behind her back, surprisingly she didn't try to stop me.

Her arm was now in my hand, in front of my face. It was covered in fresh blood.
"Did... did you do this?" I asked. She didn't say anything, just looked at me with glistening eyes. "Why?" I asked, trying to stop my voice from breaking.
"Because..." she mumbled.
"Wendy... why did you do this?"
"Because!" She screamed. "I'm unhappy!"
"I'm unhappy too but you don't see me doing this!" I yelled back.
"Yeah, sure your unhappy!" Wendy said sarcastically. "Your perfect! What do you have to be unhappy about?!"
"I don't know dammit!" That was the truth, I didn't know, I just always felt empty, like a piece of me was always missing.
"Leave me alone!" She yelled.
"No! Not until you tell me why you did this!"
"Because I can't be who I am!" I got confused. What did she mean by that?
"What do you-?"
"I can't tell you!" She interrupted me, then burst out in tears.
"Yes-!" I spoke desperately. "Yes you can!" I sounded like I was begging her.
"No I can't!"
"Wendy-"
"Dammit I love you! Can't you see that!" She screamed.
"What are you saying?" I asked, utterly perplexed.
"I'm gay! I'm fucking gay and I've been in love with you for years!"

Time stopped. I couldn't believe my ears. What was she talking about, how could she love me?

"And I know that it's wrong! But I can't help myself! I know I can't hide forever, but now it's out! You probably hate me... my life is over... you can punch me now." Her sobs turned quiet and she prepared for a punch. Her eyes tightly shut.

My mind raced. Wendy liked me, I thought it was only boys who liked me, and I thought I only liked boys. It never even crossed my mind to be with another girl. But the question that I had to answer now, what was I about to do?

What if I liked Wendy? How would that be possible? I addressed this thought, and when I did, it was like I didn't feel... feel so empty. Was that it, was that the source of my problems?

I knew my mind held secrets that I didn't want to know about, I just always kept myself so busy I didn't have time to think about them. I never addressed any of this because I was afraid of what I might find.

But now here I am, face to face with all my mind had locked away, it was a lot to take in. But was I still afraid?

Yes

I was, I wish this didn't happen, now I have everyone at school to be scared of, that's almost worse then my thoughts. I needed something, something that was missing.

That empty feeling
My thoughts that were locked away
Feeling good after I left Clyde
Feeling safe in Wendy's arms

I couldn't believe what I was about to do. But I think that was it. The cure to my problems have been in front of me my whole life.

I was shocked at my actions, but I was doing this anyway.

I, Bebe Stevens, just kissed Wendy Testaburger.