I haven't written an entry in a while due to it being my birthday and I've been a bit busy, so the party was great and I finally saw the boyfriend and it was great before he left then the rest of the night included dancing and fun. I really missed him that night, I wonder if me missed me, he's been working till late for the past few nights so we have barely talked. My parents have organised a dinner and he is coming so my parents and sister can get to know him. Everything is great and I was so exited only to hear that he has fallen sick and is working so he said I probz won't make it, when we call he sounds so bored and doesn't seem to care one way or the other. I'm lost in confusion and waves of emotion. I feel he's not making the effort but I know he's trying, sometimes it feels like his job is more important then me. When he seems he doesn't have much time for me at all. I love him so much but one half of me, the half that's houses doubt kicks in and makes me worry, we are dating yet he still has tinder on his phone, making me worry. He sounds so fed up when we are on the phone. Yet that night at the party he showed emotion that made me feel safe, are his intentions true and I am just over thinking? I'm so lost and I hate it
