Alex...

Part Three

Mama gets up and walks over to the paramedics. Doctors are frantically working on me as they try to fix me up. My eyes open up and I can't help but scream loudly in pain right before I pass out again. My stats are dropping as I'm losing a pulse, I hurt so bad and I'm so broken. Phoenix hears my scream and can't help but cry even louder than he was before.

Stacy tries to comfort Phoenix, he's shaking. "Shhh, Phoenix. It's okay. Breathe. Alex is going to be okay."

"Forever and eternity." Phoenix keeps muttering over and over again. He's in shock.

"He needs emergency surgery to fix the hole and bleed in his heart and the bleeding in his abdomen! Page the O.R and tell them we're coming up!" Yells the lady doctor.

All the doctors begon to push the bed out the room I'm in. Phoenix looks up to see them wheeling me out. I have a chest and breathing tube in.

"Alex!!? Oh Alex!! I'm so sorry baby!! Please be okay. Oh god please be okay!" He cries loudly as they rapidly pass by Stacy and Phoenix.

Phoenix falls to the ground as the elevator doors close with me and all the doctors in it. He's crying so loud. He's shaking. Stacy gets down and holds him in her arms as he cries into her shoulder. He's a mess and he's scared. He doesn't want to lose me. Mama walks over to Stacy and pulls her aside.

"A big 18 wheeler hit them side on. Neither of them were wearing seatbelts. Alex flew thirty feet away from the car and Phoenix is perfectly fine. Alex is critical, he might not make it." Mama whispers to Stacy.

"They weren't wearing seatbelts?!" Stacy exclaims as she looks back at the sobbing Phoenix.

"Stac, it's not their fault, we live so close to the Subway they were at. The 18 wheeler couldn't see them." Mama looks at Stacy.

"Ugh, right when he got to a good place. I feel so bad for him. He's been through so much. But, why did he get more damage than Phoenix? Why is Phoenix basically spotless and Alex is critical?" Stacy paces a bit.

Phoenix cries and shakes as he gets up and walks over to Mama and Stacy. His eyes are bloodshot and sunk in from crying. He sniffles and looks at the two.

"Can we stay here until we know that Alex is okay?" His voice shakes and cracks.

"Of course we can honey. We'll stay here all night if we have to." Mama says as her and Stacy pull Phoenix into a hug.

Phoenix nodded as he laid his head in Stacy's lap. It all seems like a dream. I feel like I'm floating. I'm in a dark room and I'm the only one in it. It's like I'm dreaming.

"Hello?" I say but it echoes. "Is anyone there?" It echoes.

I walk around a bit but nothing is in sight. Where the hell am I? Am I dead? Why is it so empty? I'm all alone in a dark, scary world. I can hear footsteps rapidly coming towards me.

"H-Hello??" I question in a panic.

Before I knew it, it's bright and what looks like me when I was little. Before I got into the foster system. I follow the little me towards my parents room. Little me opens the door to see my parents injecting Heroin and smoking crack.

"Oh god...." I whisper quietly as I watch.

I can hear what's going on. "Mommy? Daddy?" My little voice says as little me walks around seeing my parents drugged up and passed out.

Things fast forward to the day my parents left me all alone. "Mommy and Daddy will be back soon. We love you Alex." My mom tells little me.

"Okay mommy." I say with a smile on my face.

They leave and I watch them leave out the window. It's heart breaking. They didn't love me. They left me alone when I was five. I barely knew how to use the bathroom. What was I supposed to do? Time fast forwards more to the day I was first picked up by Stacy and Mama from the house. I was almost six, and I was so weak. The house smelled and I was naked. Mama looked around. She found many crack pipes and used needles. Not a good environment for a child.

Time fast forwards more to the day I arrived to my worst foster home. Chills go down my spine as I watch myself step out of Stacy's car. I want to scream at myself but no one will be able to hear me. Stacy hugs little me goodbye at the door of the house as I walk in. I looked so happy at the age of ten. These next three years are going to be pure hell for little me. As soon as Stacy leaves, the mother of the house comes up to little me in a snooty way.

"Here's a list of things you have to do for me and if you don't do them, you're going to get it you little piece of shit." She snarls at me.

"Y-yes ma'am." I look up at her.

"Don't you look at me like that!" She snarls and grabs me by the neck throwing me into the kitchen. "Now clean!" She yells.

I can't help but start crying, watching little me go through this is hard. It's almost like I'm reliving each and every moment that went on. It was this house that left me nearly blind in one eye. What had happen was I smart mouthed one of the kids and the mother stabbed me in the eye with a butter knife when I thirteen years old. I was rushed to the hospital after I fainted from the pain. The mother told the police that I slipped and fell, but the other kids told them the truth later. I got sent to Stacy's house for the first time.

This was when I first met Phoenix. I fell for him instantly and we clicked. He was my best friend. We did everything together. Time fast forwards again to the moment right before the semi hit us. We were so stupid in not wearing seatbelts. I watch the semi hit us and the noise the brakes make as Phoenix tries to swerve out of the way makes me want to cry. He tried saving us, but the car flipped. The car flipped and I catapulted out the front window and landed thirty feet away.

Is this a sign of me dying? Am I dying? I'm so scared. I don't want to die. I want to be with Phoenix. I want Phoenix. A few hours later the many surgeries are done and I'm in a medically induced coma.

"Stacy, Kris?" The surgeon comes out.

"Yes?" Everyone looks at the surgeon including Phoenix.

"Alexander suffered severe damage in the accident. We had to do an emergency surgery to repair the damages, but it left him in a deep coma. He might wake up, but he might not. You may come and be with him, but fair warning, he's connected to a lot of machines to help keep him alive and he's all beat up." The surgeon looks at everyone.

"We can see him?" Phoenix looks at the surgeon.

"Yes, follow me."

The surgeon leads everyone to my room where my body lies. My eyes are shut and there's a giant tube down my throat to help me breathe. As soon as Phoenix sees me, he breaks down crying again. Stacy, Mama and Phoenix gather around on chairs and Phoenix holds my hand.

"He's cold. C-can you get a warm blanket for him?" Phoenix says through his tears.

"Yes, right away." The nurse smiles as she goes and gets a blanket for me.

The nurse puts the blanket on my beaten body. I can feel it. I can hear everyone too but, I can't seem to wake up. I can't move at all. Maybe I am dead.

"Oh Alex baby, I'm so sorry this had to happen to you. Please don't die on me." Phoenix cries as he holds my hand.

It feels like I'm dreaming still. I can hear everyone. I can feel their touch. I just can't move, or talk. I can't breathe on my own. Everything hurts but I can't let anyone know. At this exact moment, I wish I was dead. I want to be gone so Phoenix doesn't have to see me like this. I want this pain to go away. Phoenix cries as he lays his head near my body. Him seeing me like this was ruining him.

"Phoenix honey, maybe we should go home for a bit. Clean you up and get some rest. We can come back in the morning." Stacy says as she rubs his back.

"No! I want to stay here with him! He's my boyfriend and I want to stay here." Phoenix cries.

No Phoenix, leave, go home and rest. I'll be fine here. Stacy sighs as she leans back in her chair. Mama is calling the other kids, telling them that they're staying at the hospital with Phoenix and I.