Life

Tamara

Before we were home schooled, my best friend Tamara came over alot, I love her so much, we have been best friends for 4 years my parents loved her too. She started working at McDonald's in October, she was always busy and I hardly ever saw her. I started cutting again and started smoking, just cigarettes and started hanging out with the wrong crowd. There was this senior named chey and we would hang out and "go to church" but we weren't actually at church we would drive around and chalk people's car. And one time we both made out and gave hand jobs and blowjobs to this guy she invited. It was bad. But my best friend found this out but I didn't think she cared because I never saw her. I also sent nudes to some guys, which is dumb, never do it you think your helping them out being nice and that they might like you more but they don't. So my parents found out about it and I got grounded. But after awhile Tamara and I started hanging out again. She would spend the night alot and I'm not sure if I should put this in or not, but we have kissed before. We aren't gay, it just happened, but it was good, no it was great. Everything was perfect until we started smoking weed with Bryant, at that point I hadn't smoked anything for a while and was good, but we did it. And then whenever we were high Bryant and tamara had sex, they had sex multiple times, but before that they were virgins. She thought she was pregnant and then lied about a positive pregnancy test, or she wasn't I still don't know, and she lied, or didn't about having a miscarriage. She did actually lie about going to life choices, so it was all a lie, or that's what everyone else thinks and that is what the evidence points to, but I feel like there has to be some truth to it. But now she is fine and has no baby but now everyone that knows about it in my family hates her and she hasn't spent the night since the beginning of January. My parents and alot of other people think it might be better if I'm not friends with her anymore but I still love her and I'm not just going to ditch her for one mistake if she did that to me I would be long gone. So that's the story about Tamara. But she also came from a rough background kinda, her parents got married after she was born and then had another kid and then they left him because he was verbally abusive. Then her mom was a single mom for a while and a few years ago she got remarried and it might just be because we are teenagers but he is a jerk I hate him and so does she. So next chapter is going to be about how I ruin the homeschool group I joined. Sorry I haven't posted in awhile my phone was broken and got fixed and then I got it taken away and am tecnically grounded right now which I will wright about soon, thanks, and sorry they're short and not very good chapters. Let me know what your opinion is of my Tamara situation.