Forever and Always: A Connor Franta Fanfic

Ch.7

*Haley's POV*

I woke up with red puffy eyes. I had cried myself to sleep last night, and I couldn't stop thinking of Connor. I checked the time, and it was 10 am. I got up and took a shower, and got dressed. I just threw on some yoga pants, and a sweatshirt. I went out to my car, and drove to Starbucks. I got in line and ordered my drink. While I was waiting I saw Connor walk in, and he was with.... IVY?! I just stood to the side, and pretended I didn't see him. They were holding hands, and he was laughing with her. They both sat down at a table, and started talking. I couldn't believe it, I could feel tears starting to well up in my eyes. I was about to go up to him when he did the worst thing imaginable. He leaned in and kissed her. That's when I heard the lady call my name.

"Small hot chocolate for Haley?"

At that moment, Connor looked up and realized what happened. He looked over at me and I just stood there crying. I grabbed my hot chocolate from the lady and said thank you. I was about to walk out the door when he grabbed my hand.

"Get off of me!" I yelled at him.

"Haley wait, I'm sorry!" He said.

"Sorry? You think sorry is going to fix this? It's not Connor. I can't believe you. You said you loved me! You.... You said you would always be there for me." I said softly

"Haley please!"

"No Connor, save it. I knew you would never love me. Those people were right. I don't deserve you, I am too ugly, and fat, and pathetic. I don't know why I trusted you. Your just like everyone else." I cried.

"Haley..."

I pulled away from his grip, and ran to my car. I got in and drove to my house. I ran right up to the bathroom, and screamed. I looked at myself in the mirror, and kept thinking horrible things about myself. They were right, they were all right. And that's when I took out the blade, held out my wrist, and made the first cut.

"Ugly." I said, and slit my wrist.

"Fat." Another cut.

"Loser."

"Pathetic."

"Freak."

With every word I said, I cut my wrist again. I looked down, and saw the blood all over my arm, all over the sink, it was everywhere. I sat down on the floor and cried. I remember Connor running into the bathroom, and coming to a quick stop as he saw all the blood. I remember him looking at me, tears streaming down his face.

And the last thing I remember was him saying, "This is all my fault. I'm so sorry. I love you Haley."