Alex Gaskarth:
Silence. All I could hear was silence.
I am laid on top of Alex's bunk that I shared with him.
I am bored.
The band had gone out partying with everyone on this tour and considering it was Warped - it was lots of people! I was only All Time Low's singer's girlfriend and their merch girl so I wasn't invited to go. I was just going to hang out with Matt, the tour manger, but he went out with his girlfriend for a meal. Leaving me alone.
I'm so sick of being alone. That's all if ever seem to be - alone.
Alex is obviously extremely busy with all the different tours he and the band is on, as well as trying to write a new album. The only reason I became merch girl is because I got so restless sitting on the bus waiting for their return - which is exactly what I'm doing now!
Sitting up, I grabbed my laptop and turned it on. I checked all my social media websites. My favourite was Tumblr as I am in many fandoms, however, I do really enjoy Twitter. On there, I stalk all my favourite bands, actors etc.
I looked through my feeds:
'(Y/N) has such great hair. I wish I had it'
'Alex and (Y/N) are perfect. I wish I had a relationship like theirs'
I loved these type of comments, they really boasted my confidence as normally I have low-confidence due to my drastic past.
I replied and favourited some of the comments as I scrolled through the feed.
'Alex can do so much better'
'Why is Alex with that slut, he should
be with someone like me'
I tried to ignore these nasty posts but they continued. "There are right" I whispered to myself as silent tears rolled down my cheeks. "He is too good for me, all I ever do is disappoint him".
Running, I slammed the bathroom door behind me before rummaging through my makeup bag looking for something specific. I found my small, black box which held something I haven't looked at, thought about or used for months!
Tears falling like a waterfall, the metal object slide across my tender skin, leaving a crimson liquid filling the gap it left behind.
Sliding down the wall drowning in my own tears, I dropped the blade as the world went a blur.
'(Y/N)?' I heard someone say, as my eyes kept threatening to shut.
'(Y/N) NO!' Alex shouted as he walked into the bathroom. I was losing concentration as the world started spinning.
Spinning.
I could feel two strong arms wrap around me with voices talking quietly.
Quietly.
Slowly, I started to drift off...
