Me Too

I dont think its going to be a good year

I came over to Levi's house in December and we were hanging out in the basement having a good ole time. Levi's mom and sister were out getting McDonald's so we were alone. We were cuddling and started talking about our book and got into detail about the more sexual parts of the book. His hand started gliding across my body, from my side to my ass, but lightly and said something that made no sense. "No they should do something else." I suggested.

"No..."

"Yes." I looked up to him.

"No."

"Yes."

"No." He leaned closer.

"Yes."

"No." Closer.

"Yes."

"No."  Even closer.

"Yes."

"No." He whispered against my lips and kissed me softly. I kissed him back and after a few minutes he got rougher and pulled me so I was straddling him. His hands on my ass, squeezing softly. I held my breath trying to not make a sound before exhaling sharply and he moved to kiss my neck. He got to an area on my neck that felt amazing and I couldn't help but moan softly. "Found it..." he whispered and chuckled before continuing. He continued kissing the spot, getting rougher and rougher before moving my hips against his, making me rock against him. I was lost in moans, his hand slipped down to rub me eventually but it stopped suddenly and his hand moved to just hug me as he looked toward the doorway. I was confused until I heard "Levi!" And steps coming down the stairs. His mom looked to us. "You two ready to eat?" She asked.

"Yeah." He said. I got up when she left. I was semi hard but it wasn't that noticeable. I looked to Levi but he just moved past me and went upstairs. I sighed before following.

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The next day I had went to a class, I looked in the mirror and saw a start of a hickey on my neck. I moved to text Levi about it but I saw a text from him. "We can't do this anymore, my mom is questioning us. - Levi"

I felt a knot in my throat. "After everything that we did last night? Wow. Thanks nice to know how you feel." I sent. I felt so angry, yet so empty. My chest felt heavy, my breaths deepened as I tried not to cry but I just wanted to cry, but I couldn't. Not with everyone around me. I felt as if someone had just ripped my heart out of my chest. My eyes stung with tears. I knew it was too good to be true, but I let it destroy me anyway.

"I'm sorry - Levi"
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I got home and I sat on the couch on the verge of crying as I continued to text Levi about it. He never said anything. He waited till the next morning to text me

"Well since we both don't feel good about it, we could just continue in secret." He sent. My heart fluttered. I didn't want this to end. He knew that I liked him but I never told him I loved him.

This was the beginning of the end.

Later that week, we were talking about the new year coming up.

"I don't think it's going to be a good year."

"Be positive."

"I'm positively sure that it's not going to be a good next year."

"Eren..."

"What?"

"Nothing..."