Chasing Cars

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I laid in bed, I hadn't moved since Annie left. My parents were upstairs chatting about work. I eventually stood up and got dressed. I grabbed my phone and curled into bed and hid under the covers. I just... felt numb... I couldn't talk about it... I couldn't even admit what happened to myself.... I just... had to ignore it and it would go away right...? I looked to my last text from Levi and I replied and kept the conversation going. I eventually started talking to another girl in my grade and she started telling a bunch stuff that Levi had said about me behind my back. He had told people that I was throwing myself at every guy in the school and I was faking being into both boys and girls. The idea hurt me, it hurt me to know how Levi felt about me now... after I fell in love with him, after he broke me... he thinks of me this way.  I chest physically ached from the pain I felt knowing what he thought about me.

Tears streamed down my face. I typed
"What do you think about me as a person" to Levi.

"What do you mean?" - Levi

"Like I'm asking when you look at me, what do you see? Do you like me as a person or do you not like me as a person."

"But Idk? We aren't really close rn and that's my fault so I guess my opinion isn't really valid." - Levi

"That's why I'm asking you."

"I don't have anything against you? I just don't think we have a lot of common interest anymore, I don't really know how I see you as a person." - Levi

"You don't have to have a common interest to have an opinion."

"But we aren't close?" - Levi

I didn't respond after that. That was the last thing I have ever said to Levi.

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