I'm scared and in love

Chapter Six: Oh Snapples

Austin's POV

Remembering what happened last month made me scared. I was gay and had every reason to not sleep with Alexis but I did anyway. A guy had his needs. I was not bi at all. I was drunk.

I held Alexis not needing to hear anything from her. This was going to be hard.

"Are you sure?" I asked her intently as I stared into her eyes.

"Well, my period is late! What else could possibly cause that?" she mumbled. I could easily see the fear in Lexie's eyes. She  was always so strong and brave. This side of her, I have seen before but it still worried me.

"I'll make an appointment alright? If you are then we'll get through this together. If not, then we can just put this all behind us." I couldnt believe I let this happen.

"What the fuck is going on?" asked Colin. He was clearly confused but seemed to have conflicting thoughts.

"Loverboy over here got me prego!" squealed Alexis. She seemed to go back to her normal self. "Ugh, I am never going to have sex with you again Austin! This is so messed up. Plus, you're freaking homo!" Now she was going into hysteria and throwing things off my desk and pacing the room.

All I heard from Colin was silence. I didnt know what to say to him or how to explain any of this, but I knew I was going to take full responsibility for all of this.

"I thought you didnt do girls?" I didnt know if Colin was talking to me or himself because he was now staring at te floor, his face full of confusion.

"I dont, but it was one night and we were both drunk. I dont know what to say man. It wasnt supposed to happen." I tried to explain.

"Trust me Colin, Austin here is so gay that he would stick his ding a ling in Channing Tatum. Hell, I would do him too." Alexis is so stupid sometimes. I smacked upside the head and pushed her out the room. "Geez, no need to be violent!"

"We'll talk later." I said as I pushed her out the room.

"No worries my love!" she said as she descended down the stairs.

For a long time Colin and I just sat there. Waiting for the other to say something first. Finally I broke the awkward silence. "What am I going to do?" i asked him. No matter what Colin was my bestfriend and I went to him for everything.

"I don't know man. I mean you're going to be a dad and what's worse is that you cant really be gay, you know?" Colin seemed to be trying really hard to make sense of everything and help me out.

I sighed. "I know. I know I have to focus oh Lexie and the baby now but, I cant help it if I'm into other guys! This is a bunch of bull crap." My head was spinning out of control and I just flopped down onto my bed.

"Dont worry. It will turn out ok in the end. Do you guys want to put the baby up for adoption?" asked Colin.

"I dont know. I dont want to. Its going to me my freaking kid. Im pretty sure Lex wont want to either. then again it would be easier." I needed time to think about this, nothing was for sure yet. "We need to get her to the doctors first, then we can figure this out."

"Austin, are you going to...come out?" Colin asked wearily.

"No. Not if she's pregnant. That would just ruin both of our lives and make everything an even bigger mess." I couldnt let people know I am gay. It would just let stupid people make fun of Leie even more for sleeping with a gay guy.I couldnt do that to her.

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The next few weeks were hard. Lexie wouldnt tell me what the Doctor said about the pregnancy so I was worried as hell. She didnt come to school for two whole weeks and when she cam back she looked horrible. Her skin was pale and her eyes red. Her hair wasnt the luscious flowing mane it always was. Her clothes looked baggy and dirty. I would mistake her for a hobo if I didnt know her.

"Alexis?" I shook her shoulders trying to get her attention. "Whats going on?"

"Austin, I'm so sorry I havnt called or anything its just....my mom....she...." Alexis broke down crying heavy tears and her whole body shook as she sobbed.

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