I woke up in the middle of the night and ran my hand across the sheet trying to find a trace of his body lying next to me but coming up empty. I slowly propped myself onto my elbows and looked to both my sides through squinted eyes looking for Ross. I yawned as I rested my head back in my hands and saw a little streak of light peeking through the doorway and got up to go check on him.
I walked down the hallway in my pajamas and into the kitchen to see him standing at the sink gazing out the window lost in thought. I walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist causing him to slightly jump.
"Hey, sweetie. Go back to bed, I didn't mean to wake you." He cooed as I rested my head against his back. He turned around and pulled me into his chest rubbing my shoulders and resting his chin on top of my head. He was so warm and gentle and I was lost in the moment already half asleep.
"I'm not going back without you, you know I can't sleep without you." I quietly giggled into his chest as did he. "How "did" you get up without waking me anyway?" I questioned arching an eyebrow knowing full well what he had done.
"Its all in the hug and roll, babe." He teased pressing his point by swaying us side to side.
"Why are you up anyway? Are you alright?" I asked pulling away in order to look at him. He put his hands on his hips and stood there trying to find words to say. He never looked me in the eyes, his were attached to the floor and it started to scare me.
"Ross.. " I said stepping closer forcing him to look at me. I placed by fingertips right above his waist line and slowly traced a line up and down is lower abdomen as he pulled me closer by placing his hand on the curve of my back making our stomachs touch. He brushed my side fringe away from my eyes with his free hand as he exhaled.
"I don't want to bother you with this tonight." he paused to swallow. "and it's not even finalized so I want to tell you tomorrow with everyone else." he finished inching closer to me hinting that he wanted to kiss me but wasn't sure if I would accept his answer.
I nodded without saying a word and closed my eyes as he brought his face fully to mine and kissed my bottom lip gently.
"I love you." he mumbled as he pulled away and it was filled with such seriousness and desperation that it scared me and I tensed up in his arms. He must've felt it too because he instantly began to rub my back and whisper more I love you's into my ear over and over.
Without saying another word he grabbed my hand, lacing our fingers together pulling me back into our bedroom. We crawled back into bed and I layed on my side of the bed to give him some space because he seemed to be stressing.
"Baby, I can't sleep without you either you know.." I could tell he was smiling when he said this and I rolled over and felt his arms immediately grab my hips and scoot me as close as he could to him. He kissed my forehead and I never felt so protected in my life. I knew this is where I would be forever and that feeling could never be replaced.
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The next morning we woke up in the same position and I smiled against his chest when I felt him making small circles on my back and sighed happily.
"Goodmorning, sunshine." I said upbeat as I looked up at him but he wasn't even looking at me and seemed serious. Too serious. He was never like this and even the few time he was I could get it out of him so I decided to go with it.
"Hey." I said again with sympathy in my voice and crawled on top of him. I held myself up by propping my elbows up beside his face and smiling. He slowly turned his head towards me and gave me a sad smile. I ran my fingers through his hair and bent down to kiss him. I gave him multiple short and sweet kisses occasionally going in for a long one then realizing that he wasn't really responding.
I swiftly pulled away grunting. "What did I do.. Because I'm sorry, I'll fix it!" I plead. I must've done something to make him shut me out. This had to be about me, he's never turned me away like that.
His eyes widened and he pulled my face back to his and carressed my cheek. "No, no, no Rach it's not you.. I just have a lot on my mind." he reassured me and kissed me this time. "I'm sorry.." he apologized.
I rolled off of him facing away from him. "will this mood end soon then because I miss my Ross." I pouted and soon felt his hand on my hip as he leaned across me kissing my neck.
"Look, I'm sorry I'm just really scared. This is an important decision." I rolled back over to face him and saw him look crushed. His breathing became heavier and he looked like he was about to cry.
"Ross! Baby, I'm here for you always!" I say placing my hand on his cheek. "No matter what you decide I'll be there with you. That's what girlfriends are for afterall." I giggled trying to lighten the mood.
He immediately brought me into his chest and held me so tight against him I thought I was going to burst. "I hope that's true." he choked out and we got up and headed for Monica's where we would meet everyone there.
Once we got there he had us all sit around the table.
"So what's the big news, did you find an unextinct dinasour?" Chandler quipped but Ross just shot him a look.
"No, it's just that I got a new teaching job! It's at one of the best colleges, I would get a bigger salary, a better Job and promotion and it would be just great.." He explained and everyone's faces lit up except for mine.
"That's great, Ross!" Monica exclaimed and the rest agreed. Ross just stood there with his hands in his pockets looking down.
"Why don't you seem excited about this?" Phoebe asked
"It's in another state isn't it." I jumped in, my voice shaking. He didn't answer.
"Isn't it!" I yelled hitting my hands against the table. I was on the verge of tears but this next question would be the deal breaker.
"And you said yes.. that's why you've been so distant lately.." I half asked but already knew the answer.
"Y..Yes." he whispered and that's when I broke down. I rolled my eyes back trying to keep the tears in and violently stood up causing my chair to fall to the ground as I pushed it away from me. I stormed out of the apartment or saying a word.
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Hey so this is my new story I wrote this awhile back and really wanted to post it so if you all like it I'll continue
