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I looked at him shocked and shoved him away from me. I stood up from the couch and made my way to the bedroom when he ran after me.
"Rach, you can't get mad at me for this! It's important for my career!" he screamed and I stopped in my tracks and slowly turned towards him.
I sarcastically laughed and shook my head. "oh and I'm not important to you? A job is more important than our relationship?" I ask hurt. I couldn't believe that he would give up what he had for this. I began to cry again and Ross ran towards me holding me up.
"Rachel you are everything to me. You hear me?" he asked as he held me and I nodded into his chest. I grabbed fistfuls of his shirt and clung to him for dear life. I can't stand to lose him.
"When would you have to go and for how long?" I asked pulling away and messing with the buttons on his shirt.
"I leave tomorrow and well for a whole school year I'm stuck done there and then I can come here during the summer..." his voice was sad and I felt myself choking on my own tears but I promised myself I wouldn't cry again.
I nodded and walked into our bedroom and began changing into my pajamas.
"It's okay Ross.. You can go, I'm just going to miss you so much." I tear up as I crawl into bed. He gets in beside me and turns the lights off.
"Can we talk some more about this?" he asks rolling me over so that I'm facing him.
"No, I don't want to think about this right now, I just want to be with you." I say in the tiniest voice and wrap my arms around his waist as he holds me protectively against him. I feel him massage my lower back and ass as we lay there. We're laying on our sides with my face up against his stomach and I slowly begin to push his shirt up and kiss his chest. He pulls me closer to him as I do this and I start to slide lower and lower making my way down his stomach has his breathing becomes irregular. I get down to his pants and pull them down a little way and resume kissing him getting lower and lower and making my way under the blankets when he pulls me up.
"Rach.. you don't have to try and convince me to stay not like this baby.." he says sincerely sitting us both up. I put my head in my hands and cry some more.
"I just don't want to lose you, ever." I sob into my hands and he lays us back down and pulls me into his chest again and holds me tighter than I've ever been held.
"You won't, I promise. I'll always be yours, and you know that. I love you." he reassures me and kisses me gently rubbing my cheek.
"And tomorrow I'm spending the whole day with you. Okay?"
"Okay." I smile
"and I actually have something extremely important planned." he chuckles and I kiss his neck.
"Okay baby it better be worth my time." I joke and I feel his fingertips brush my skin under my shirt and it sends chills up my spine. He still had that affect on me and I didn't know how I could go so long without him.
