Chaos Angels

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Stefani's POV

As I let go Mrs Fletcher I was standing alone in front of my desk, I dissociated for some minutes. I looked at the frames on my desk I took one in my hand, it was a portrait of Sofia last year, she was smiling on it. I was wondering how could I not see how unhappy she became ? Was I really that selfish ? Thoughts were running through my mind insanely. I was interrupted by a smooth voice
"I'm he... Mom ? Are you ok ?"
I lifted my eyes off the frame I was holding to see my daughter along the threshold, I immediately came back from the rainstorm of thoughts I've been to,
"Yes honey come here,"
I walked to her and opened my arms to give her a hug and kissed her head.

Sofia's POV

When I saw my mom walking towards me with her arms opened I smiled and scurried into her grip. It was so good to be in her arms, maybe my favorite place to be. I know I just turned fourteen but I still need my mother after all, we've always been together. She didn't seemed angry that's why I felt even more relieved but I could see something in her mind embarrassed her. I closed my eyes and let infuse her delicate scent in my nostrils before I told her this is maybe the only thing that appease me, her warm hug and scent.

"I know you've never been a daddy's girl !!"

She laughed proudly and let go of the hug then I followed her around her desk, she was playing with Mrs Fletcher's papers and looked at me in the eyes,

"So honey I talked with your teacher and she told me about your wish to go to high school you know what I think about it. But I noticed you've changed lately, you doesn't seem really happy, is it about my decision ?"

I really thought it was a joke how can she still think it is not her fault I mean I've been bothering her for awhile with it, it was like she didn't listen to me.

"I don't know." I said with a hurt tone.

She read my mind she knew I lied,

"Sofia-Rose I have to know, you're my priority and I always put you first I always wanted to do my best for you and to protect you and as a mother I really can't imagine something wrong happening to my baby, your happiness is all that matters to me. You will understand when you will have children but if it's also the reason why you even gave up your ballet lessons we need to do something."

She always had the gift to make me feel guilty because I didn't want to hurt her if I told her that spoiler alert : yes it's her fault. I've being depressed with my life lately because I didn't choose for it. I knew she wanted to be the best mom so I just managed to say,

"I'm sorry."

She stood up form her chair and kneeled in front me lifting my chin up,

"Hey Sofia what's happening ? What are you sorry for ?"

"I'm sorry because I'm not the girl you expected me to be, I didn't succeed to make you proud."

I could feel a tear rolling down on my cheek, she wiped the tear and when I was about to sob she shushed me and stroke my back with her right hand.

"Please don't ever say this again you don't know how much I'm proud to be your mother, you're smart, beautiful inside and out and you're dad's and mom's happiness. I really feel terrible because I made my own child think that she isn't worth it when she is definitely the reason why I'm still here today. Sofia-Rose I'm really sorry don't be scared to tell me what's on your mind next time please."

I could see that she really cared about me so I decided to open up too.

"I didn't want to bother you more with your work mom, you seemed reluctant when I tried to talk to you about high school so yes, I got really upset. Even more because dad is not here but I'm used to now. I really need to discover other things not that I don't like being with you and your staff but I don't have any friends all my "friends" are because they are related to you and dad. I can't do things by myself, I can't go out, I didn't choose for this life like this is so unfair." I let it go all of sudden.

"How are you feeling now ?" She asked me.

"Better,"I breathed.

"Well! Don't be scared to talk to me anymore, it was a heavy weight for you to keep your thoughts and you don't have to torture your mind like this because you hurt your mental health too. I have to talk with your father to let him know and that he also has a family but be sure to attend high school in September baby."

"Ohhh mom really ?? When dad is supposed to come home ?" I jumped from my seat with tears of joy this time before sit down again.

"Yes I think we need some change, if it is ok for you to go out with a bodyguard I'll let you more freedom. I don't know yet.. that's why I have to call him he was supposed to come home soon."

She tried to escape the subject asking me another question,

"Sofia would you like to continue ballet but in a studio ?"

I nodded with excitement for a simple thing, I've never been allowed to go out by myself in fact my public appearance were really rare. I felt the bitter tone of my mother when she talked about my father so I decided to skip this part.

" I don't know yet.. Maybe it will be the occasion to meet people so why not!" I grinned.

"By the way I bought something for the end of your homeschool,"

she stood up and caught the packages beside the armchair. She gave me the packages and I unwrapped all of them I was so amazed and touched to see there were plenty of dance stuff, and a beautiful dress Versace.

"Mom this dress is so beautiful oh my god!!!" I gasped.

"Donatella made it just for you try it! Show me how you're beautiful with it" She said even more exited than a little kid.

I couldn't stop looking at the beautiful details of the dress and imagined this was made just for me, of course it wasn't the first time that I had such privileges but what did I do ? Once again thoughts in my mind took control when I saw that the dress seemed to be really thight I know that I wasn't going to fit I was way too fat and I suddenly felt more uneasy when I saw there was no sleeves.

"Umm.. I'm not going to change here." I said looking all around the room.

"I've already seen you naked Sof, should I remind you who changed your nappies ? " She gave me a suspicious glance.

"I know right but I need to see something.. I come back," I tried my best to not act weirdly or she will know that something was wrong. I took the dress and entered in my room, I put it as fast as possible to my surprise the dress fit me but I still felt gross in it. I didn't like my reflection, I couldn't stand seeing it and what I've done to myself so I grabbed a jacket, made my way back to show the dress to my mother.

Stefani's POV

I felt delighted to see my little girl smile again. I'm glad to see that she wanted to pursue her passion but she acted a little weirdly when I asked her to change in front of me. She never had problems with nudity or maybe she is in age to want some space and I should respect that. She came back with the dress and a jacket on but it wasn't a good match.

"Sweetie this is supposed to be worn without a jacket in order to see the details can you remove it please ?"

"But I feel better with it.." She winced and crossed her arms.

"Show to mommy please."

I tried to convince her more but this kid is really stubborn, I put my hands on the collar of the jacket trying to take it off but she started to wrestle, I managed to hold her right arm and I let the sleeve slip when suddenly I gasped with astonishment.

"Sof... Sofia what is this !?"

Pointing her arm with my right hand and the other in front of my mouth. It was the beginning of all our troubles.