Hetalia: Axis Powers One-Shots (1)

alfred f jones {trigger warning: suicide}

america x suicidal!abused!reader
first time writing this kinda thing. also about the food thing, it happened to me rip. anyway, please don't suicide! talk to someone. if you're abused, please please please tell someone to take some action! don't keep quiet and hurt yourself. i love you guys okay? xo

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You accidentally dropped your plate of (lunch). You couldn't move your hands. Your couldn't even feel your hands! You stared at your lunch on the floor. That was the last (lunch) you have left. You couldn't afford any food as your parents never gave you any money. The only thing they gave you was beatings, canings and scars. Deep scars. Scars that could hurt your heart. They didn't care. Your teacher didn't care. Your 'friends' didn't care. Nobody asked what happened. Nobody cared.

After you regained your sense of touch, you wiped your tears away. You were starving and you couldn't take it anymore. You grabbed the broken piece of glass and scratched your wrist with it. Blood. Your wrist is bleeding. You're alive. Starving. You stood up, walking away, not even bothering to clean up the mess you made. You walked to the rooftop. Looking down at the bottom floor from above. This was it. You couldn't stand it anymore, the abuse, the starvation, the ignorance.

What you didn't notice when you were walking up was that Alfred, your neighbour, followed you up. Wondering where you were going and what had happened that caused the glass breaking. Alfred noticed you were going up the rooftop but didn't say a word. He thought you just wanted some fresh air. Oh, but he was wrong. So very wrong.

You stood at the edge of the rooftop. "This is it. I am finally going to have some freedom." You whispered. "(Name)!!! What are you doing?!" Alfred cried out. You turned around and saw him. He had that worried and horrified look on his face. For whom was the look for? You don't know. And you don't want to know. This moment, you are giving up on life. This wasn't your first attempt on suicidal. This was in fact, the fifth time. All the other times, Alfred had stopped you. You were getting annoyed with his meddling. You never did know why he was meddling with you. Saving you every single time.

"What do you want Alfred?! Stop it! I give up! I don't want to live anymore!" You shouted, tears streaming down your (e/c) eyes.

"Why?" was all the blonde said.

"Nobody cares. Nobody cared or noticed this scars on my body. Nobody noticed my starvation. Nobody did notice or cared. So why should I live? I'd die living anyways."

"I CARE!" He shouted. "Why did I save you from your suicidal attempts if I didn't care? If You're going to die then I'll go with you!"

"Why?" you asked, shocked at his reaction.

"Because, I love you (name)! I love you since little! I tried saving you countless times, how can you be this dense?"

"Huh?" You tripped and fell, Alfred following behind. He caught you and kissed you. "I love you (name). I really do. We'll always be together from now on..."