I'm drowning.
Deeper and deeper and further and deeper and down.
Down down down.
Every new challenge is another lead weight to my ankles, pulling me further.
Further from that warm, sunny expanse which had been my realm for so long.
It's now but a fracture in the distance,
A shard of light, so broken and delicate and
Far, far away.
As obstinate and prominent as a pinprick
On snow pale skin,
But as unreachable as the horizon.
Further I go.
Again.
I'd always been the one to stay afloat,
The lifeguard, the swimmer, the show.
The tables have turned and oh isn't it just
...laughable. And painful.
Now I'm being pulled further and I'm trying.
God, I'm trying so hard to kick and push and
Fight.
But still I spiral down.
I cry, tears so frantic and achingly terrified,
But it's all water down here after all.
Drops make no difference.
I scream, with that last ounce of energy I have
But only bubbles emerge.
A lungful of water quickly silences my call,
My already silent shouts.
I don't know how much deeper I'll plummet,
Or how long I'll be down here in the dark.
The weight of water,
As indescribable as the substance itself,
Presses in from every direction.
My organs, useless and hated,
Are being compressed.
Icantbreath
~~~
Aah I'm sorry it's been so long since I last wrote here. I haven't had the time to sit down, and I've had an absolute mind block recently.
As you can probably tell, things are a little intense for me at the moment, what with exams, schoolwork, homework, coursework, training, races, friendships, commitments, clubs, and mental health all trying to be balanced on an impossibly small metaphorical stool.
It'll be fine.
I hope.
~Anna
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Midnight flashes
RandomA collection of poems, short pieces of writing and the general muddlings from my brain. This is a small window into my mind- all of the twists and turns of the labyrinth that are my thoughts, a way to see both the light, happy paths and the darker...
