*After TØP concert (for people who don't have any interests in them, I didn't want to make this a trigger session)*
I just met Josh Dun! I did the Stressed Out handshake with him and I am silently freaking out. Mama Rowland is driving us home at the moment and Hunter seems to look like he had a great time. He recorded me the whole time basically going insane.
"Hey Christine?" I asked. I'm gonna ask her if I can actually call her Mama Rowland in person.
"Yes sweetie?" She responded. She is honestly so nice.
"Funny question, can I call you Mama Rowland?" I laugh.
"Of course! You could call me whatever you want!" She laughed with me.
"Oh yeah mom, whenever I talk about you when we text, she calls you Mama Rowland." He playfully shook his head.
"What? It flows!" I say in defense, not like there was anything to defend.
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Hunter was able to stay the night. At the moment we are laying on the grass looking at the stars.
"The sky is very beautiful at 1:00 in the morning" I laugh. I am beginning to notice I laugh too much. Or maybe it's a good thing, they say the more you laugh, the longer you live.
"Yep. Almost as beautiful as you" he took my hand. I just started blushing like crazy and I could feel it. "I've never seen you blush before! Aaron, you're blushing!" He yelled excitedly.
"Shhh. People are sleeping Hunter!" I whisper yelled.
"Oh yeah, oops. Sorry everyone!" He whispered to the neighborhood, even though no one could hear him but me. I felt a water droplet fall on my nose. Soon, there were tons. I look at Hunter and we are both soaked. It's raining! I love it when it rains, it's rare here in California.
"Before we go inside, may I have this dance?" He asked putting his hand out. "Dancing in the rain is on my bucket list" he added.
"But there's no music" I replied.
"So, who cares" he still had his hand out. I hesitantly took it and he pulled me closer to his body. "Hi" he smiled while dancing along to the music of silence.
"Hello" I whispered and half smiled. He had one hand intertwined with mine and one on my waist. I put my free hand loosely on his shoulder. This actually isn't awkward at all, I feel like it should be though. We aren't even dating.
I noticed myself to start blushing again and he quietly laughed. It started to rain really hard. "We should go inside now Hunter. It's dangerous." I said while slowly pulling away.
"Wait" he said pulling me back in with a tight but gentle grip. "There is also something else I want to do." I gave him a questioning look. "I've also always wanted to kiss a beautiful girl in the rain" he smiled. Before I could respond, his lips locked with mine.
This was the best kiss I have ever had, keeping in mind it's my first. Our lips move in perfect sync. We sadly pulled away after what felt like forever, even though I still wanted it to go longer. Time seemed to slow down. "You OK?" he chuckled. I was just standing there in shock.
"Yeah, let's go inside" I got the words out. I pulled him inside and to my room quietly. My mom is asleep. "You have to change, did you bring spare clothes?" I asked.
"I only brought sweatpants" he answered with a wink.
"You have a sweatshirt right there" I pointed to his Thrasher hoodie hanging on my chair. "You left it here the other day." He frowned.
"Fine. I'd rather go shirtless any day, but whatever you want" he said.
"Whatever, just wear what you're comfortable with. Go change in the bathroom. I'll change in the closet" he said okay and went to the bathroom right across from my bedroom.
When we were both changed, we just layed on my bed with a distance. It was awkward for me since he didn't have a shirt on. "I'm sorry" he whispered.
"Why?" I have no idea why he said that.
"For kissing you. I shouldn't have done that. I know you didn't like it." He said quietly.
I looked at him. "What do you mean? That was the best thing that has ever happened to me. I just didn't acknowledge it because I was in shock" I said with honesty.
He smiled. "Oh okay." He grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to him. He rested his head on my shoulder to where his nose was barely touching my neck. He was really close, but I kinda like it. I feel safe. "Can I tell you something?"
"Sure" I replied.
"I love you Aaron." He said simply, but sincerely.
"Really?" I asked. This boy just keeps throwing me off guard tonight.
"Yes. I really do. I want to have a relationship with you, but I wouldn't want to ruin our friendship and I don't know how my supporters would react." He said. I love how he cares about his supporters so much and wants them to me happy. I like his decision on that.
"I love you too" I whispered. He didn't say anything back, yet I can tell he was smiling really big. We both finally fell asleep.
Unfortunately, I woke up to pain.
A
Lot
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text messages // hbr
Romance"Why do you have to leave?" He whispered softly as his tears fell onto my skin. Permanent darkness took over my helpless body.
