Wasn't Supposed To

1: Luck On My Side? Definitely Not.

I wasn't supposed to fall in love with him.

He was supposed to be just a crush.

I didn't mean to actually love him the way that I do.

And I do, I love him so much that it hurts to see them together.

I wasn't supposed to fall in love with a guy who has a girlfriend.

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This never would have happened if I took a different Comm class. I should have taken a regular Comm class, but no, my ass had to take group Comm because I hate delivering speeches on my own. I need a group with me. So, I took this group Comm class and of course I meet him there.

Declan Taylor.

He walked in late on the first day at college and was apologizing to the professor and talking about how finding a parking space was so complicated. In that moment, I immediately crushed on him. Everything was perfect about him. His skater boy hair, the penny board in his hands, the way he walked in so confidently, the way he spoke so smoothly even though he was ten minutes late, the way he smiled, everything. I'm pretty sure I completely fangirled about him in my head and I know that I texted my friends telling them that I've seen "the love of my life".

At the time, luck seemed to be on my side since we got put in a group together and would be with the same group for the whole semester. Everything was going perfect. We became really great friends and we had a lot in common. As it turns out, he's the lead singer in a local band. Like I'm saying, he was the love of my life. Everyone who knew me knew that this boy was exactly my type. So since we became really great friends, he ended up inviting me to one of his gigs. I was so excited, this boy that I have a crush on is actually giving me some of his attention and isn't brushing me off. I should have known something bad was happening.

The night of his gig, I met his girlfriend.

His freaking beautiful girlfriend.

My heart (and ego) was really broken when she introduced herself to me as his girlfriend. Especially since within the month that I've known Declan and became great friends with him, he did not mention having a girlfriend at all. I was blindsided when she told me that she knew who I was and I had to pretend like I knew about her the whole time and I had to pretend like I didn't have a crush on her boyfriend.

Luck was definitely not on my side when we were picked to be in the same group together.

I should have never taken group Comm.