One Word

Remember

The most deadly heart disease is not a strong memory, it is a fragile memory. Like when it's 3 in the morning and you're laughing down the phone with your best friend about that time in primary school with your old mates but you can't remember what you did so you just laugh with her. When your half way through college and space out in class because you try to remember what you learnt last week but all you can remember is that bad time last month when you couldn't remember your way home so you got lost for hours. When you tried so hard to feel happy for ateast one God damn day that when you can't hunt happiness you try to find happy memorys to cling to. But you can remember any of them. You can't remember what your dad was like before he left. You can't remember what happened before you were 14. You're only 17. So you try to forget everything, so you don't have to remember the bad when you know there was good. You start drinking - 40% gone. You start smoking - 60% gone. You start not sleeping - 70% gone. You start not eating - 85% gone. You start passing out - 99% gone. You end your life - you're gone.